Wanderer Of The Moonlit Night

Just for you... Dear friend

// Very personal msg for a certain someone, random ppl not allowed to read, I'm not gonna tell the persons name for privacy reasons regarding her nvm //

Whether you ever see this or not... I just want u here... I'll be waiting for your reply... I want you to be the last person I'll wait for... Don't get late, you weren't late.. i was stil here i didn't die. So would you be alive for me.. pls there's just so many things so much i wish for you for us, a sudden going away won't let me live ever this hollowness had broken me more than anything, more than even my ex or anyone.. ppl have shamed me for waiting for you, they think I'm being weird or mad, but who doesn't gets mad... If it is you, I'm fine being mad for you... I need your shoulder to cry at, i really need it rn... Idk anything you must bee alive and fucking alive... I've had enough fo hurtings and regrets, waitings and longings, betrayals and heartbreak, you may not have been that close with me..

But you know what, when you said me that i feel like home to you since u knew me, please don't leave me. Because you were never a stranger to me, never...

I'll not write anything unless you come back, and that's it no mater what others think or say i don't care...i just want you to prove that my prayers and wishes don't go to drown in waters... I want you to yell at me that IT WAS FUCKING WORTH IT U IDIOT.. prove me that you love me, return alive for me ♥️♥️ maybe what you say could be true. We weren't meant or whatever like universe never lets us be together but.. at least be alive.. be there as my friend..? My dream girl... Pls.. I'll prove you friendship can be genuine too.. I'll prove you that we can stop being dead and start living Alive... See I'm still alive.. I'm waiting for you na.. don't leave me.. coz it's not really one sided dumbo... Why can't u fucking understand this when you went... I wanna see you... I have no contacts ot ways to find you left.. so I'll leave everything to this universe and you now.. we've done enough, enough really... everything had been too much.. and I'm being crazy after a really long long time... Idk when was i this crazy before. Ydk what all weird things I'm doing at my home lol...

I don't wanna let go... I know I'm not that strong.. i just wanna hear you,

Hold on, I STILL NEED YOU...!

Do read the latest poem in my poem book. It will be the last thing i write in my book.. I'M NOT GONNA WRITE ANY POEM TOT unless you come to cheer me to write more poems hehe lol.. yess I'm stubborn like a smol baby kitten uwu..

Mwhahahaha *evil smile* idk anything u need to come back, YOU NEED TO COME BACK.. uhhm u want something in return? Ask me ill do as u say. Just come back... I'm crying too much... It's been almost two months... Ppl give me reassurance but so long... I guess everything had ended.. everything.. waiting for the one... There had been so much sufferings since always as you know I've written a lot in this book and my 350 pages of suicide note that day lol.. but i don't wanna die.. i really don't wanna... I wanna be found, just like you.. i just want reassurance, i may not be that great, but i can surely make u believe in what you've lost faith in.. it's never late for something new isn't it.. and u need not worry about my happiness or life.. I'll be fine.. if you're too ..

I'll try my best to help and support u. Ok dear ? Won't you come back..! You already saved me before from a suicide attempt, do u wanna make me feel guilty of not being there when you were gone..? You said u didn't wanted me to be gone when the floods came and the battery ended and for more than a week you couldn't contact me, but i survived right for you..? I didn't wanted you come back to see myself gone .. but you? Won't you do the same for me please ? I returned from the hospital that day, with a sad face after seeing the blank chats...... I'll really pray to god that you return... And if you won't, i wish I'll be with you wherever you're... It feels too empty world without the ppl whom i adored the most... After losing her, i don't want you too be gone.. pls make me feel it was worth fighting thru all my life for... Won't you? Hah.. there's just too much suffocation thinking Kiminonawa was just an anime... Lol... I really wanna know if there's any way i could just change everything... Maybe go back in time or something... After knowing my telepathic history u cna guess how everything gets crazy around me and my life... That plan i told of.. i tried it, when i was unconscious a lot of stuffs had happened.. I've been seeing glimpses of a life I've not known.. idk what's all that.. i find my memories intertwined.. my consciousness seems to be losing day by day.. some multiverse kinda shit too happened when i was out of my body dreamwalking into the other world.. i saw another of me. I don't know what happened.. i also seemed to have signed some sorta contract with an unknown being there.. i got to find a lot of truth about the universes.. i saw the utterly scary glimpses of universes repeating itself and it's creations... ugh.. it was horrifying to watch it.. after coming in consciousness i started receiving unknown telepathic messages which sounded otherworldly.. it was real yeah.. and then i saw the news. They said that they just received a Fast Radio Burst from our nearest star system where i directed my telepathic energy when i performed the ritual.. i saw a glimpse of myself coming to meet me in a weird looking spacecraft- what's that did my telepathy worked?? Did they get my message and call?! . maybe Kemchoro was real.. and so was that spirit who came.. things are coming true.. and wth your experience with dreams.. the "they" who didn't wanted us to be together i believe is none other then the shadow people.. i saw the proofs coming out about it's existence. There's a huge mess going on. I tried researching everything i could.. I'll keep researching on it.. the craziest ideas in the universe lol.. recently i saw in a dream where i was creating portals thru my mind and entering multiple universes and i saw this repeat many a time idky.. i saw a girl contacting me too idk if it was you again.. I'm still trying my dreweaving hoping i can establish a contact with you somehow again whether in the same time or from the past.. i tried yesterday but my brain isn't working to recall anything well now.. it takes a huge bit of my consciousness and mental strength to to thru those methods of telepathic channels..