Wanderer Of The Moonlit Night

Psychology books ≠ Mental Health

I wanted to share some incidences here and rant my feelings about it. If your views contradict with mine, consider it as my personal perspective based on my experiences. Yeah ofc different ppl can have different kinda experiences.

From my personal observation and experiences of many ppl i know of, who had been studying or taken help from a psychologist/counsellors (including me recently),

What i feel is that (not all) many psychologists don't really understand how to behave well or treat someone suffering thru traumas or victims of harassment, suicide attempt and sexual assaults. It's like their acts and behaviour itself contradict with what one should do with a person suffering from mental health disorders. When i got the counsellor after my suicide attempt and huge amount of mental abusing and harassment by my family and loneliness etc including my never-going away chest pain which feels like a knife stuck in my chest always- i expected the specialist counsellor (Ms. Rinku Pathak of ILS hospital) to provide me help with my family based issue including the wrong behaviour of my parents and second was her guessing some need of therapy for my chest pain which could be psychological (tho i don't think so anymore),

So what happened was that, she first took a huge amount of Money for many days in advance! (oh and she's someone who preaches "There's no value or need of rush for money, everything will be gone after death" lol contradicts herself) Then she started the counselling sessions. Now after almost a month is over also, the thing is that, she was not at all paying attention to the problems for which i actually hired her. She wasn't concerned about it at all and rather preaching her own ideals and bookish knowledge which even a kid knows about mental health. I kept telling her again and again reminding the problem but she was just delaying to take any step to actually do something which can help me. At one side she was a whole money minded bitch who just wanted to delay everything so that she can exploit more money from us plus, she was very very pessimistic. I've never expected a person to be so negative minded who is preaching u to be positive 24/7 (it's so stupid to make someone a robot who just thinks positive everytime right, we do feel sad and that's natural, the lady just denies it) and why she was negative? Because in things like talking to my parents etc, whenever i told her she would give a creepy ass smile, in a harassing way constantly say "What if they don't understand? What will u do? Will u suicide like a stupid? "

And then even after knowing what all dramas happened wimme in my love life and family, she was again and again forcing me to accept that I'm stupid for harming myself instead of actually comforting me.

I mean where's the question even from? When she herself hasn't tried to talk with them about the wrong way of parenting? And then she was instead lecturing me for hours about I should adjust with bad treatment by my own family instead of making them understand anything -_- she never tried ever. Even if she's appointed from a well known private Hospital here, she was utterly a disgusting person, when talking about my chest pain, she even irritated me by constantly speaking of other ppl's issues about heart attack, brain tumour etc etc which has nothing at all to do with me. Her constantly talking about such irrelevant with a very negative toned voive was getting me headaches -_-

Instead of helping me, she was making me feel very very irritated and suicidal. Always she would keep talking about the negative sides of everything. Everything bookish she told me was something i already knew of since childhood, it was so basic and something every teen knows. But she keeps saying the same bookish things again and again even after I've myself explained her those things back as she asked. She was terribly trying to just delay helping me in any way.

i told my mom earlier to get her off from here now i don't want any counselling but she said they've paid a lot already so at least do a few more days. I did some but eventually told parents "So after all this, you still think your money is more important than your kid's peace of mind?" And somehow convinced her to cancel her appointment and she didn't gave any refund as well for the extra days which i didn't do.

Another girl i know of had therapies, but almost not a bit of help from the psychologist rather it seemed her mental health worsened.

Another close person of wattpad here once went to one seeking help with depression loneliness etc, but instead of helping the lady (ig her name was Busra Sheik in Nashik) adviced what yk?

"Don't talk with your close friends more than 2 min a day for months" -

I mean -

Wow- and that friend of her back then was me (wp friend) ! She herself knows how much it helps by talking to friends and she came out of her long emotional numbness due to me as well, (#TalkingHelps) but the counsellor be like "No, Talkin doesn't helps. Stay alone fuck ur life being unsocial even if u wanna socialize" Lol a stupid fickle minded person would believe such a counsellor and end up ruining their bonds and mental health. Glad that at least she didn't believe her at all.

Two neuropsychology doctors came to visit me in the hospital that day when i was on bedrest. The woman was like kinda exaggerating. She woke me up at midnight when she could have visited at her usual time. Yk how much untimed this person is? Ik everyone has work and all but there's a regular delay in her coming. Ppl from far come and pay to visit her at 7pm but at 8 pm they're told that she will come at 9 pm. I saw how many ppl got late like 10-11 pm when they got their turns and some ppl even went off without being getting treated even after payment coz it's ofc not easy for everyone to get vehicles from there so late. This doctor was also treating an old man beside me, and due to her behaviour, that old man fainted and got hypertension the nurse reported soon-

That other psychologist was like the most oversmart and overconfident person I've ever seen. He basically doesn't even knows that it's like a poison to make the sufferer feel like he's weak and all. He was so boastful of himself as well and was like I don't try to survive or socialise. I mean. At least the ppl who have read this entire journal of mine know what's the truth :)

I've myself once read Educational Psychology book and in one part of it. There were theories stating everything in mental health is based on sexual satisfaction. I mean wow. Just wow. Then how the fuck are sanyasis, yogis, kids and so many ppl uninterested in sex stay happy or calm?! The book was so rubbish god knows how much i wanted to burn it off. There was utter rubbish stupid things taught in this book. Glad to know even a famous motivator like Sandeep Maheshwari in one session says you'll get mental instead of getting help by reading Psychology books as the book writers don't really know the truth about mental health itself.

Idk but I'm getting an idea that certain Psychologists and counsellors are either gone psycho for real or else they really don't bother thinking about their profession ethics when dealing with people. I've not yet seen any personally known ppl getting a real help from them from issues like family probs, anxiety disorders and stress. All i see is them coming back home with an even more sadder face and telling others that they're feeling more suicidal. Coz that's the truth at least for some of these psychogists and counsellors. I think normal doctors treated me with much more comfort at usual problems than a psychologist/counsellor had. Including the emergency neuro surgeon, he was so calm and comforting person unlike the other two psychologists and counsellor.

I'd always recommend ppl to talk to their good friends instead of such a fucking "Anti-Mental Health" counsellors. There may be some good ones too but Real Friends can make u happy and heal without asking for a bit of money yk!! So make sure not to leave away someone who's nice towards you! :)

Ahh *idk what I'm feeling, it must be butterflies* I must say the best experience was that the nurse treating me was excessively cute and i got swayed away by her staring at me - i was gonna say something like Hey girlie- I'd love to get an extra injection everytime you do, so that i can stare you longer- but i didn't *blush* i literally wanted to be a nurse along with her- I've read so many mangas and stories where -
Ok nvm- ahem ahem- XDD *blush intensifies* BYE-

Preach Mental Health awareness so that ppl don't end up getting manipulated by a wrong counsellor who doesn't understand it! Thanku for reading it ! UwU

~ 2:05 pm (10 August, 2022)