Stray Kids Imagines

Changbin

Tw: mentions of su!cide, dr!nking, f!ghting

You said goodbye to Changbin as he left for work. Now was the perfect time. You could finally get rid of the pain you were feeling. You were so tired of feeling imperfect, ugly, like a burden, and worthless. So you decided that you would end it today.

You wrote a note to Changbin then went to find his gun.

However, when he was at work, he got a bad feeling. It was so bad his heart was sinking into his stomach. He needed to check on you. So he drove home, not even caring about explaining it to his boss.

He parked the car and went in, going up to the bedroom and seeing his worst nightmare infront of him. You had the gun in your mouth while tears streamed down your face. You hadn't noticed him yet. And you didn't notice him until you were about to pull the trigger before he ripped the gun out of your hand.

"Y/N! What the hell are you doing!" He looked at you, his heart completely broken. You flinched and stumbled to the ground. He softened up and bent down to you "im so sorry baby... im so sorry. I didn't mean to scare you..."

You looked away and tried to hold in your sobs. "Baby please.. lets talk."

"Leave me alone Changbin."

"Baby-"

"LEAVE ME ALONE!" You shouted at him, not being able to control your sobs anymore.

He nodded and left the room after making sure there was nothing you could harm yourself with.

You curled up in bed and kept sobbing loudly, hearing changbin leave the house. You knew he probably took every weapon in the house so you didn't even bother trying to find something.

You decided to call your best friend, felix for help. You really needed someone to talk to. But when you called, he didn't answer. So then you decided to call your big brother, minho, feeling better once he answered. "Hey minho I-"

"Y/N. Im busy. Please don't call me."

"But I just-"

"You just what? Wanted to distract me from work!? I told you. Im busy!"

You flinched a little at his reaction, feeling a bit hurt. You know he didn't mean it, but it still hurt you. So you held in your sobs "nevermind... bye minho.." you ended the call and kept sobbing.

You ended up trying to call all of your friends but no one would answer. It made you feel like shit. So you got up and grabbed a bottle of whiskey from the kitchen and started drinking as much as you could. You looked for pills, but couldn't find any. He took those too.

You layed in bed and kept drinking until you heard a phone call. It was Felix. It made you feel a bit better, he must've been away from his phone when you called. But you didn't want to bother him. You decided to answer the call 'I can just tell him I just wanted to check on him.'

You answered and we're greeted with "Y/N? Is everything alright?" You weren't one to call often, more or so text. You had forgotten about this as you were so full of emotion. But as soon as he asked 'is everything alright' you broke into loud sobs.

"Y/N? Oh bub. Are you at home?"

"Yes! Where else would I be~?" you took a deep breath

"Okay im on my way."

"Oh felix is coming to visit me~"

"Yes I am Y/N. I'll be there soon."

"Okiee..."

"Im pulling up. Just stay put. Are you in bed?"

"Yessss~" Felix has a key to the house so luckily you didn't have to try and go to him. He could come to me.