Stray Kids Imagines

show me true love: part 6

Han pov

I looked at her "hey.. why don't you eat a little okay? Have some of the meat."

She nodded and began eating slowly. She was getting a little less pale as she began to eat more.

I poured her a glass of water and set it down next to her. Panic set in me, she needs to eat more. But if I pressure her she'll stop eating.

I waited until she finished the meat to put more on her plate "don't focus on anything but the meat. Just have the meat."

She nodded and began eating again.

Y/N pov

I hated eating so much. But I knew I had to in order to stop myself from fainting. I drank water and kept eating. I ate the sides as well.

"J-Jisung...?" I looked at him for a second before looking away

He nodded and held my hand carefully "yes y/n?"

"C-Can I... can I have more...?" I nervously said and tried to hold in my tears.

He smiled and wiped away my tears "of course. Don't be ashamed. Im okay with you eating more. I eat a lot so it's normal, I promise." He giggled and gave me more.

I started to cry at his words. His words make me feel so... good. Like im not a freak.

I got up and hugged him tightly. I didn't care how much it hurt. I just wanted to show him my appreciation.

But I noticed something, he was panicked. Worse than he was before. I tilted my head "hannie... what's wrong?"

Han pov

I felt it. Her sleeves were so wet. They were practically soaked. Nothing else was. That's when I knew. She cut herself didn't she?

I looked at my shirt, noticing the blood. I started tearing up. "y-you hurt yourself?"

I carefully grabbed her arm and led her to my bathroom.

Y/N pov

'Shit... he saw. He's going to hate me. He's going to hate me for the rest of his life. He'll beat me. Just like my father.'

I started to sob. 'Let me go back in time please... don't let him see it.' My panic set in as we got into the bathroom. I began to breathe heavily as everything got dizzy. I was having a panic attack.

He set me in his lap and rubbed my back "hey.. y/n. Im not mad okay? Im just worried. I don't want you harming yourself. It can do a lot of damage, it could kill you. I just don't want to lose you. I know we just met yesterday but I still care about you. I knew you before then, you just didn't know me. And I always wanted to make sure you were okay. I just didn't know how to tell you. But when I saw you crying, I couldn't hold back anymore. I needed to help you. And I'm so glad I did. Now, let me help you again okay? May I roll up your sleeves?"

I nodded slowly and tried to calm my breathing. He rolled them up carefully and began treating the wounds. As he did that, he sang softly to help me calm down.

The song sounded so familiar. I used to hear someone singing it everyday. It was Close, by a rapper from my favorite band. (I HAD TO)

Once he finished treating them he hugged me carefully. I hugged him back and didn't say anything. My breathing began to go back to normal as he rocked me slowly.

He whispered in my ear "I'll protect you. Anyone who harms you will have to come through me first. And I'll make sure you don't have the urge to self harm anymore. Don't worry y/n, you'll be safe."

I nodded as he picked me up and placed me in his bed. He layed beside me and put my head in his chest. I turned red and looked up and him "h-hannie..?"

He looked down "oh im sorry. Is this uncomfortable for you?" He backed away.

I thought for a second. 'I can't trust him... I can't trust him. But he just helped me. Why can't I trust him?' I shook my head and snuggled closely into him, listening to his heartbeat and matching mine with his.

He smiled widely and watched me drift off to sleep. Or, atleast he thought I had.

He kissed the top of my head and whispered softly "Sleep well. I love you."