Stray Kids Imagines

Felix

Tw: self h@rm

Felix and you we're laying on the couch together. He had his legs spread to let your slender body fit between them as you rested your head on his warm chest. He was patting your hair softly and pecking your forehead every once in a while. You loved when he did this while you guys watched scary movies. It made you feel so safe... so protected.

And you loved that feeling so much. But you hated when it faded for no apparent reason. All of the sudden your mind flooded with depressive thoughts. 'Felix doesn't love you... he's dating you out of pity... just cut yourself.... nobody loves you... they're all just lying to you... they're all just lying to you...'

You stayed silent and hid your face in Felix's chest. You knew Felix would be able to tell something was wrong but you we're in too much mental pain to care. Felix instantly noticed "sunshine? What's wrong?"

You instantly looked up and faked a smile, making it as genuine as possible "nothing love, just that part scared me a little. Im going to use the restroom really quick okay?"

Felix nodded, not entirely convinced and watched you walk to the bathroom. You went inside and closed the door, hesitantly locking it. You quickly searched for your blade. Felix had followed you and listened through the door. Once he heard you ruffling through drawers his anxiety increased. He knocked gently right as you slid the blade across your upper thigh. You flinched and gasped, dropping the blade.

He heard the metal clank and started to tear up "y/n please open the door... please..."

You quickly bent down to find the blade "Felix, im fine... please just leave me alone."

"Sunshine. I know you're not okay. I'm not mad at you. I'm just worried, my sunshine must be hurting so much mentally, why else would you be doing this to yourself? I love you y/n. I love you so much, I care so much about you. I don't want you to feel like hurting yourself is the only option. It's not. Im here to help you. Please just, open the door."

You eyes started watering as you unlocked the door and slowly opened it. Felix pulled you into a welcoming hug, sorrounding you in a feeling of saftey and warmth. Tears started spilling out of your eyes rapidly "I-Im sorry..."

"No love, don't be sorry. I understand what you're going through. I understand it's hard. Lets work through it together okay? I got you."

You started to feel your body fall into itself as you started sobbing harder "felix please... help..."

He helped you stay up "oh love... come on let's get to bed." He picked you up then walked over to the bed placing you on the soft and warm bed.

'It's almost as warm and comfortable as him' you thought as you waited for Felix to get in with you which he did so not soon after. At this point you we're full blown sobbing and hyperventilating, not being able to control the desperate whimpers coming out of your mouth. You hated how you were acting infront of him and you hated feeling this way. You hated every second of it.

"My love, look at me."

He used his index finger to slightly lift up your chin so you matched eye level. You we're feeling pain and tightness in your throat due to how hard you we're trying to get air into your lungs.

"Breathe with me okay?" He cupped your cheek with his right hand and rubbed it in slow gentle circles with his thumb. With his left hand he held yours, drawing delicate circles into your palm as well. He took a deep breath in and held it for a few seconds before exhaling. You followed him a few times until you were able to breathe normally.

"Good job y/n. Im so proud of you babygirl." He kissed your forehead and pulled you into his muscular chest. He wrapped his arms around your back while you wrapped yours around his waist. You pulled him closer to you until you could feel your left cheek smashing into his abs. His heartbeat was music to your ears and his warmth continued to engulf you like a blanket. You embraced the scent that always brought you comfort, his cologne that he puts on everyday. You loved his cologne and he knew that. You even have a small bottle for when you miss him while you're at school and he's at work. He also had a small bottle of your perfume incase he missed you.

"Sunshine?" You said as you slowly looked up at him.

"Yes love?"

"Why does school have to be so stressful?"

He frowned "is that's what is causing this you think?"

You nodded slowly and snuggled back into his chest. "Thank you for sharing this with me. And don't stress yourself out. You can always ask your professors for help or me. I might be able to help you with a few things! I'm here for you baby. And if you need to go to a meeting with the professor during office hours I can come with you if that would make you feel better?"

"But babe, you have a job to worry about too. You can't be staying with me all the time to just go to office hours with me..."

"Yes I can. My boss would understand and plus the projects I have due for the next few months are done. I'm just doing simple work right now."

You looked up again and smiled softly, kissing his lips with full intent of showing your love to him. He smiled widely into the kiss and replicated your movements.

"Thank you lixie. I love you so much."

"I love you too sunshine."