Peripeteia (per·i·pe·tei·a): [n.] a sudden reversal of fortune or change in circumstances, especially in reference to fictional narrative
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Chandler Rae Dawson is just about out of options when it comes to finding love. Dating app after dating ap...
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//MAY 29TH 2021//
Every night I go to sleep thinking tomorrow can't possibly get any harder. My feelings can't possibly get any stronger. And every day I wake up, only to be proven wrong by my heart.
How can I still be feeling these things for her? We haven't even really interacted that much except for a few moments here and there. But I mean still, nothing one on one.
I've told myself time and time again that this is what's right. This is what's meant to happen. I can't be careless with this. I know the consequences of being with her, not only for me but for her too.
It just keeps bugging me in the back of my mind that I can't have any part of her in my life. Every moment together just felt so perfect, so destined to be together.
Even though our lives may not fit together, our souls knew how to dance.
And at the end of the day, that right there is the worst part of it all. Our hearts knew, and still do know, just how meant to be we are. And maybe that's a stretch. Maybe I'm a little crazy. This whole thing was so rushed, we barely knew anything about each other. Just because I feel this way right now doesn't mean I won't ever find someone else. She's moved on. Her and Bennett seem to be getting stronger together everyday.
I can't keep thinking about her like this. I should be listening to Melina right now, but all I can think about is her. That laugh... that magic fucking laugh. It puts me in a trance, that laugh. I'm sucked out of any thoughts, any conversations, anything. Her laugh radiates across the entire set, across the pool and the couches and right over to Melina and I.
Now my head is empty, except for her. I had myself so worried as to if she was okay after that drop the other day. I guess hearing her laugh with Meg, Chad, and Bennett means she's doing okay. I just wish she was laughing because of me. Laughing because of something I said... not something he said.
I mean... maybe I could do something. Maybe I should just go over there, tell her how I really feel, kiss her, and –
"Harry." I feel a hand on my knee, pulling me from the dangerous thoughts that seem to live in my head at all times these days.
What am I doing? I can't do that, I know I can't do that. I can't let my mind be so reckless, it's dangerous for the both of us, and I won't let her get hurt... I won't do it.
With a shake of my head, trying to rid any last little trace of bad ideas inside my head, I turn slightly, putting Chandler out of my view, and Melina completely into it, I respond. "Sorry... I'm sorry. What were you saying again?"
She stares back at me, unresponsive as I try to search her eyes for any hints as to how she might respond or where her head is at right now. I know she caught me daydreaming, I just hope she didn't put two and two together and realize I was thinking about another woman.
