Love after Death

Chapter 29

Death is inevitable. Every life has a story, and in most cases, the conclusion is death.

But what if not everything is ended by death?

Some special people live a life where their story continues to be told and in a way they continue to live on while dead. When you die you always leave something behind. Some people leave a loved one, most people leave family, and everyone leaves a trail. There are many different ways death occurs. An individual could die of old age, naturally in their sleep, in a traumatic accident, suicide, disease, unfortunately within combat of the war, and many other ways.

We all have encountered someone dying at some point in our lives and even though we know it is bound to happen with each individual, it still hits us with disbelief and a strong coming of emotions.

What if death is just the beginning of everything? In a way, all that happened are just trials to trigger the thing that must have started, which is love.

7 YEARS EARLIER |

Nagising ako dahil sa hapdi na nararamdaman mula sa braso ko. Nang imulat ko ang sariling mga mata ay napapikit ako dahil kulay puting kisame ang sumilaw sa'kin.

"How's your feeling, sir? Do you feel any pain?"

"I've had an accident, right?"

"Yes sir."

"Then why are you asking me if I feel any pain? Of course yes. But I do not have time for this. I need to go.." ani ko't inalis sa katawan ko ang mga nakakabit, akma na sana akong tatayo pero nakaramdam ako ng sobrang kirot sa binti upang matumba ako.

Agad naman akong inalalayan ng nurse at inihiga akong muli sa puting kama..

Maya-maya'y pinanood kolang na asikasuhin ako ng nurse, matapos ang lahat ay agad nitong niligpit ang mga gamit at nilisan ang silid.

Nang subukan kong muling tumayo ay muli akong nabigo dahil sa pilay na nangyari sa buto ko. Sobra ang kirot na nararamdaman ko pero hindi kona iyon iniinda dahil ang isip ko ay nasa babaeng mahal ko.

Hindi siya pwedeng mawala, hindi totoo ang mga sinabi ni Mom. Hindi pa siya patay dahil nararamdaman ko...

"Liam.. Anong nangyari sa'yo, huh???" agad iniluwa ng pintuan ang lalaking abala sa pagiging doctor. "I told you to be safe, right???" Michael's voice while directly looking at my body..

"What happened to Monique?"

"How're you feeling??"

Natigilan ako matapos marinig ang tanong na iyon mula sa kanya. Para bang walang nangyaring hindi maganda sa babaeng pinakamamahal ko...

"Mom called me earlier... Si Monique....."

"Liam.."

"Mom just called me kanina, she told me that she's gone.." sa muling pagkakataon ay nangilid ang luha sa pareho kong mga mata, habang nakayuko ay pinagpatuloy ko lang ang interes ko. "Kailangan nating makauwi, Michael.. Gusto ko siyang mahawakan.."

"One week ka nang walang malay, Liam.."

"I have to see her, I need to touch and hug her, bring me to her please Michael!!!" disperado kong tugon sa kanya..

"That's impossible, Liam."

"Why?? Mom just called me, kanina lang 'yon Michael. Hindi ito pwede.. Hindi totoong one week na ako dito...."

Agad itong lumapit sa'kin habang nakatingin lang ako sa kanya, malabo na ang piningin ko dahil sa luhang nagbabadya nang pumatak..

"She's been buried, Liam.. I know your pain, I can understand your pain, but Mom needs us both.. She needs us to be strong for her.." anito at hinawakan ako sa mga balikat. "Monique's gone..."

"No!! Tell me you're just pranking me, tell me it's not true.. I need her, Michael. I need her..."

"Hindi lang ikaw ang nasasaktan sa mga nangyari, Liam.. Mom and I are still both in pain.. Hindi lang din ikaw ang nasaktan at nasa ganitong sitwasyon at dahil 'yon sa aksidenteng dulot ng hindi mo pag iingat, Liam." diretso nitong sabi upang lalo akong maiyak at mapayuko..

"I need her.." muli kong sambit dahil siya lang ang nasa isip at puso ko ngayon... "I wasn't beside her when she needed me the most... Hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko, Michael... Hinding hindiii..."

"We have to move forward, Liam.. Walang mangyayari kapag pinagpatuloy natin ang pagdadamdam..."

"But I need her .." muli kong binanggit ang mga salitang iyon..

Paulit ulit man pero iyon lang ang kaya kong sabihin sa mga oras na ito..

"There is a boy who's suffering because of the accident happened... He's in unstable status right now.. One week na siyang walang malay gaya mo pero mas malala ang mga sugat na tinamo niya, mas malala ang kalagayan niya kesa sa'yo, Liam.. You brought yourself in danger, you even brought him here...."

"I need her....."

Walang sawa kong sambit sa bagay na nais ko ngayon, para bang ang lahat ng mga naririnig ay hindi ko kayang absorbahin matapos malamang isang linggo na ang nakalipas matapos ibalita sa'kin ang nangyari kay Monique..

If you were in my position, can you blame yourself??
I know other people can see me being selfish.
I can't blame them, I can't blame them because I know it won't bring back all the things that happened.
I can't blame them if they think that I'm selfish, but I'm really in pain.

The only one I want is to be with Monique...
The only reason why I was in good condition is because of Monique, now that she's gone,
is my life still worth living??

Pain makes a person feel restless and disturbed. It becomes difficult to focus, pay attention or work productively. One cannot think clearly when in pain.

When pain becomes unbearable the natural instinct is to shout or cry. Some cry loudly, some silently.

Eventually, Liam's cry is too loud, sometimes being silent.. Even though he's a man, he couldn't hide his own feelings as if he was in a cage having no reason to be out at all.

That is the pain of a person, being left behind by someone you are expecting to be with you in a longer time...

Can you blame him? Or can you feel his sorrows??

To be Continued...
Love after Death