The blood of the Phoenix.

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Ambrose

That moment my humanity came back on from looking at my son, he brought me back from my no humanity darkness, the pain hit me of what Iv caused to my family, Ella Ella Ella is all I had spinning around in my head she died that moment because I tasted her blood, me and Giuseppe drained her, every last drop while she was pregnant with him, that baby there my son, I didn't even know she was Phoenix, she could of died for good I had no idea and at that very moment, I didn't care.

All the dead bodies I'd left around America, all the woman id fucked then killed, I may be a vampire but I'm not one that will kill the way I have done with Giuseppe and the worse of it was he had his humanity on sucking them dry, the evil in his eye that man was once my closest friend, now he's a monster I'm just glad we left him behind at the council, he told me he wouldn't stop hunting Ella down, her blood was something he craved the power he felt from taking it, I know now my humanity is back that I need to protect her from him.

I cringed as Every memory of the bad things Iv done to Ella hit me all at once, Iv let her down she died because of me and Giuseppe, I was made to turn my humanity off and hurt the girl I love, now my son is born that's who brought me from the brink of fully losing myself, losing myself to the darkness.

Looking around The room, everything is in silence as Ella lays on the bed and I'm sat looking at my son, what do I say to her? How do I apologise for the bad things Iv done? I clear my throat and try to think of the right words to say " Ella I'm so sorry" I manage to say to her, she looks up at me from the bed and I see her eyes well up she closes her eyes and turns over to face away from me " I can't talk to you just yet Ambrose it's too soon" I can hear her voice crack.

I slowly stand and place Joseph in the crib next to her, I kiss him on the head and Quietly leave, I don't know how she'll ever forgive me, Iv been a monster driven her away into the arms of Lucien.

As I slowly shut the door my mother is right in front of me, I'm in need of some blood all of this is overwhelming, I try to step around her but she taps her foot, I'm too ashamed to speak to her she's been asleep in the family crypt for too long and she wakes to find her son with his humanity Off killing the girl he loves. I use my vamp speed to exit the house, I can't speak to her yet.

I need to think straight, Lilly my wife who was apparently killed is sitting in my cells, where has she been? although once my lover the Mate mark never disappeared like it had with Ella. What does she want and why is she here?

I made way for my club the vip room will have some willing humans a blood bag won't do yet, I know I can't hide from the problems Iv caused but I can sure as hell try.

I find a willing female human who sits on my knee shaking her tits in my face, it's not a Fuck I want it's her blood, " put a top on now" I demand. I'm not interested in this shit I just want to feed, she gets off my knee looking at me like some scolded little child. Many of these humans here are owed by Vampires willingly of course, I guess it's a fetish which I'll never understand.

The girl comes back fully dressed this time she sits on my knee and I dig in, closing my eyes as her blood makes it's way down my throat, I think back to the night of Ellas 'death' I remembered something that I hadn't processed before, my brother Jase he was there he fooled me working with father .

I push the girl off my knee and rush outside, turning my anger towards Jase it's his fault Ella died, yes she's alive as a Phoenix but we all had no idea she would come back, I could of lost her and my son for good, she's my true mate how could I do something so bad? I decide to look for him. He was going to pay for what he'd done, Giuseppe had already payed the price, that fucker burned to death.

I will not accept that this is my fault Jase is where it started, him and father who will stay asleep just like he did to my mother.

It's still late so I head back to the house, I crept inside and up to Ellas room, she was fast asleep but Joseph stirs in his Crib next to her, I walk in and pick him up just as my mother walks in with a bottle, she stops and stares at me before smiling and handing me the bottle " son. I know your not ready to talk. But I'll be here ready when you are" she slightly smiles and heads out slowly shut the door and leaving me with Joseph, my precious son has no idea how special he is, although I swear he's looking bigger than earlier on, we have no idea what's to come of you little one.