My Baby Love (A Bang Chan Daddy AU)

Chapter 26: They Know

Bang Chan and I look each other in the eyes and I can see the desire swirling in his. There's a moment before he quick shakes his head and the desire leaves his eyes.

"Baby, we need to talk about what just happened with Eric," Bang Chan says, trying to compose himself.

I realize what he means and I start to freak out. "Channie, Eric just saw me in my Little Space," I say frantically. "Only Younghoon knows that I'm a Little. The Boyz were never supposed to find out about me being a Little. Omg. He must be talking to them right now asking if I'm okay. Channie, I didn't mean to expose myself like that. I was so deep into my Little Space. I just missed you and my boys and Eric. I forgot we were supposed to do a check-in today. Channie, what if they hate me?"

Tears stream down my face as I can only think of the negative reactions from The Boyz. Of course Younghoon accepts me, but I've never thought about how the other members would react. I have kept this a secret from them for so many years. They could be mad at me or think I'm digusting. Eric heard me call Bang Chan 'Daddy' too. He might think I'm sick in the head. The others might think the same way. I could lose the only family I've ever cared about that. Suddenly I hear my phone go off. I quickly pick it up so see Younghoon calling me. I answer his call.

"Ami," Younghoon says cautiously. "Are you in your Little Space right now?"

"No," I manage to croak out through my tears.

"Bestie, are you crying?"

"Maybe..."

"Ami, don't cry."

"Did Eric say something?"

"Yes, he frantically called the whole groupchat. Thankfully we're all in the same dorm right now. But he said that you were talking in a baby voice and he was very confused on if you were okay or not. He said Bang Chan is there too. He heard you call him 'Daddy'."

"Oh god... Channie is here. What are your members saying?"

"They're just trying to figure out if you're okay. They're concerned and confused. They don't really know what any of this means. They sent me to call you. I'm in my room right now and the others are in the living room."

"Hoonie, do I need to tell them? I hope they don't hate me or think I'm disgusting. Hoonie, I can't handle if they hate me."

"Ami, no. They could never hate you. You're their Noona. They love you, I promise. If you want to tell them, it's up to you. They just want to know that you're okay. That's all they care about."

Bang Chan helps wipe the tears off my face and my eyes. He kisses my nose and it makes me giggle.

"What do I do?" I ask Younghoon.

"Whatever you feel comfortable with," Younghoon replies back. "You don't have to tell them if you don't want to. I know how much of a big step it was to tell me. But I can guarantee you that those boys out there are going to love you regardless. You're their Noona. Every since they met you, they've loved you and treasured you like you're their own family. They would never hate you for being a Little."

I give a heavy sigh as I begin to weigh my options. Telling them would be great so I wouldn't have to hide a large part of me. But it's scary to open myself up like that. But Younghoon's right. These boys have been my family for awhile now and they deserve to know every part of me. Especially when they have also shown me every part of them. I love these boys and I know they love me too.

"Okay. When is the next time all of you will be without schedules at the same time?" I ask Younghoon cautiously.

"We don't have any schedules tomorrow," Younghoon answers back.

I suck in a breath. "Okay. Get everyone in the same dorm and I'll explain everything."

"Are you sure you want to do that, Ami? You don't have to if you don't want to."

"Yeah, baby," Bang Chan backs up Younghoon's statement. "You really don't have to."

"No," I reply back firmly to both Younghoon and Bang Chan. "I want to tell them. They're my family and this is a family that deserves to know that part of me."

"Okay. I'll let everyone know. But Ami, I just want to make sure that you're 100% sure that you want to tell them."

"I do, Younghoon. I want to."

"Okay. I'll see you tomorrow. I love you, Ami."

"I love you too, Younghoon."

I hang up the call and set my phone down next to me. I collapse against Bang Chan and curl up into his lap. I feel him caress my hair and I practically melt.

"You're very brave for telling them that you're a Little," Bang Chan praises me softly. He kissed the top of my head. "Do you want me to go with you when you tell them?"

"No, you have schedules tomorrow," I tell him. "You can't miss those."

"I would if you asked me to."

"Channie, I could never tell you to do that. What do I tell you all the time? Your career comes first."

"But you're just as important to me. And if you need me to support you when you talk to the boys, I would drop everything to do that."

I look up into Bang Chan's eyes. I can see how sincere he is in his eyes. It makes me smile, but I know I would never ask him to skip his schedules just to support me. I feel ready to do this.

"No, I can do this, Channie," I tell him confidently. "And I'll have Younghoon by my side. But I appreciate you wanting to support me. I really appreciate that."

I give Bang Chan a kiss on the lips and he kisses me back. I pull away from the kiss and rest my head on his shoulder. I let out a heavy sigh. I can feel Bang Chan rubbing small circles into my back.

I never thought I would have to tell the boys about me being a Little, but I guess it's a better time now. I really hope that the talk tomorrow goes well. I don't know what I would do if I lost my boys.