𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 (𝐂𝐅)

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧- 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐌𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐟 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐬

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2 years ago

I laid outside with Belly beside the pool, sunbathing. I felt so grown up sunbathing, I felt like I should have a cocktails in one hand and a book in the other.

The boys played in the pool while we did, me and belly looking up to them sometimes when they screamed or splashed us by accident.

"Ellie?" My sister says my name. "Belly." I turn to her with a smile putting my sunglasses on. "Do you think you can like two boys at the same time?" She asks randomly.

"I've never experienced it but sure it's possible." I nod my head as her face becomes guilty as she looks to Conrad and Jeremiah in the pool.

"So you like both the fisher boys, classy Bells." I giggle as she kicks me leg telling me to shush.

"I don't know, I just feel confused." She sighs and I look to both the boys.

"Just like Elena Gilbert said 'it's okay to love them both." I remind her making her laugh loudly.

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I felt dirty, gross, and for some reason guilty. I turn to a naked Jeremiah who slept soundly next to me. I quietly take myself out of the room trying get hardest not to make any noise luckily I made it to the hallway.

I felt cold as I walked down the hallway until I stopped and remembered I was butt naked. Before I had time to sprint to my room my brother walks around the corner.

"Oh my god!" He screams as I rush into my room, the last image of my brothers face looking scared and horrified. As if this day couldn't get any worse.

I could only stitch together a few memories from last night but I could definitely remember sleeping with Jeremiah. Thinking about it made me feel sick.

It wasn't that Jeremiah was unattractive or not good in bed but he was like my brother, and now the only memory I had of him was of last night which I hated.

With Jeremiah I always felt like a little kid again, so pure and immature. Now something felt like it had shifted and not in a good way.

I just kept picturing Conrad's face if he ever found out. He could never found out. Not like he cared but if he knew I slept with Jeremiah there would be no chance for us to happen.

There was a knock at the door snapping me out of my thoughts. "Come in!" I shout nervously, for once hoping it was my mum but in walks Jeremiah. Knocking on the door for the first time in his life, I already hated this.

"Hey." He says with a slight bit of awkwardness. "Hey." I laugh a little at the tension in the air, Jeremiah soon enough laughed himself before we both started bursting into uncontrollable laughter.

"We good El?" He stops laughing but still holds a big smile. "Always Jere." I give him a reassuring smile. "Oh but no one can ever find out, not even my brother okay?" I warn him but from his face he had the same idea.

"Why on earth would I tell your brother, he would beat the shit out of me." He nervously chuckles. "It's between us don't worry, I'm going swimming with the girls you coming?" He asks pointing to the door but I shake my hand immediately.