𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 (𝐂𝐅)

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐲- 𝐈𝐧𝐭𝐨𝐱𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠

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I couldn't help but feel exited for Belly's big night. As I curled Belly's hair i look at her in the mirror, she was singing along to Taylor swift while texting Jeremiah on her phone. Taylor was on the bed doing her makeup, placing false lashes on with the smallest mirror known to man.

"Taylor what are you wearing?" Belly asks half heartedly, not even looking up from her phone. "A hot red short dress, it's hot." She wiggles her eyebrows. "How many guesses you'll be wearing you're 'I heart cousins t-shirt." Taylor teases but Belly was in her own world.

"I personally like the cousins t-shirt." I stick up for Belly but Taylor does nothing but roll her eyes dramatically.

"You're all done birthday girl." She enters reality as she switches her phone off and looks at her hair. "I love it, and I love you." She stands up kissing my cheek as she giggles.

"Ugh finally I can use the mirror!" Taylor barges past me placing herself at Belly's vanity carrying on with her eyelashes. "I guess I'll use my mirror." I look to Belly who gives me a smile and shrugs.

I go into my room syncing my speaker to Belly's music on Spotify. I get ready, doing my hair and makeup, I put on my outfit. It was a tight black body con dress, something simple. I look at myself in the mirror, staring longingly. I looked beautiful, something I told myself rarely, but being dolled up made me feel like I was attractive. I smile to myself about to go to Belly's room but as I do Conrad walks past stopping at my door.

His eyes set on me, he quickly scans me head to toe before going right back to my eyes. "Wow." He breaths out his eyes blinking slowly. "Shut up." My cheeks go red as I turn away from him and look back to the mirror. He walks over slowly standing behind me, our bodies so close, it felt like the space between us was electric.

"You did your hair for once." His hand lifts up to my hair pulling it back exposing my neck. My breath hitches as his hand tickles my neck, sending goosebumps to my arm.

"Do you prefer it like this?" I manage to get out in one sentence as I look at him through my mirror. "I kinda like it when it's all messy." He continues to play with my hair, wrapping his hand around it as he lifts it up. "Like in a bad pony tail." He finally looks at me through the mirror, his eyes piercing my soul. His hand still tightly gripping my hair up. His body slowly getting closer to mine.

Finally our bodies touch, my bum pressing on his crotch, ever so slightly, but it enough to make my breath hitch. I could see him grinning before I closed my eyes. I gulped trying to not make it loud. I wanted to kiss him. I wanted to push him back onto my bed and rip his clothes off. But I couldn't, I wouldn't allow myself, especially on Belly's night, this interaction was already too much.

I move my body away from his, his grip on my hair loosening as my hair flows back down. "Stop it." I warn him going over to my vanity and sitting down as I try busy myself, I grab my necklace as I start to put it on but catch my hair in the process.

He doesn't say anything but comes up behind me taking my necklace in his hands. I scoop up my hair as he places the necklace around my neck and does it up for me. "Thanks." I clear my throat standing back up again, only this time I wasn't facing away from him, his face was inches away from mine.

"Anytime El's." He shows a small smile. "You really do look beautiful, I hope you know that." My heart melted as he softly spoke to me. I hated this, I wanted him to leave, I couldn't have him here, I couldn't trust myself, he was saying and doing everything right.

"Conrad why are you saying this stuff?" I furrow my eyebrows, are eyes not moving from each others, like we where having a staring contest. "Why would I not?" He shrugs walking backwards to the door still staring deep into my eyes.

Still the thought of kissing him ran through my mind but I watched him walk out my room, as he did I sit on my bed lying down as I look up the ceiling catching my breath, it's like I had just gone for a run. How could someone make someone feel this way?

Over something so small as holding there hair up and calling them beautiful. It felt like I was intoxicated in that moment with him and as soon as he left I was back in reality. How could someone who I haven't kissed have this big of an effect on me?

"Ellie are you ready yet?!" Belly shouts coming into my room as I sit straight up pushing my hair off my face. "We're you just taking a nap?" She looks confused. "Uh yeah, getting ready is super tiring." I lie but she doesn't question it anymore and instead comes and sits next to me before flopping back on my bed and I join her.

"I think I need to break up with Cam." She blurts out as I turn my head to her. "What? I thought you really liked him." I don't think belly knew how observant I was of her. She rarely called him anymore, she would text Jere more than him, and if Conrad wanted to hang out, she would drop Cam that second.

"Do you think you can love more than one person at once?" She turns to me hopeful I would say yes. I wanted to tell her I loved Conrad and Jeremiah, but both in different ways. But I know belly loved them both in the same way.

"I think you know in your heart you have love for one person more." She doesn't say anything more but instead looks up to the ceiling again. "Who would you choose?" She asks nervously.

"Who between Connie and Cam?" She takes a few seconds to reply. "Jeremiah and Conrad." Even though I had already seen the signs, I pretended to act shocked. "Shush it's not a big deal." She giggles slapping my shoulder before the laughter dies down.

"So, who would you choose?" I stumbled on what to say but before I could think anymore my mouth was open.

"We'll Jeremiah is my best friend so I love him in a very different way to you." I laugh. "But to you he is who you can completely be yourself with, you are most yourself in his company."

"And Conrad." I trail off looking away from belly. "I don't know with Conrad, he can make you feel like you're the only two people on the planet, that your something special." I notice myself rambling and cut myself off as I look back to belly.

"Belly whatever I tell you shouldn't change your mind on who you really love more, that's your decision to make." I wanted her to say she would pick Jeremiah, the boy who was in love with her and wanted to be with her. But I knew belly, she would always love Conrad, and that's what made everything worse.

"I don't want to even think about it anymore!" She sighs sitting up. "Come on let's forget about stupid boys and get drunk!" She holds her hand out, her voice full of excitement. "Maybe not too drunk." I warn as she pulls me up.

"Tonight's going to be amazing!" She grabs my arm as we walk out my bedroom. I pray, hope this night was amazing.

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