The Promise

Part 63

Our trip in Paris was over. I spent a great time there, Paris was amazing. After it we went to London, another beautiful city, for me much beautiful then Paris. I liked it more.

Everything was doing great. I was having a lot of fun and everything, but there was one thing that was kinda annoying me and that was that I needed to avoid Michael during the whole trip. It was kinda awkward.

With Jack was everything great. There were moments when we could see each other and share a few kisses. I hate that I am not telling him about the kiss with Michael, but I don't wanna lose him. I am trying to forgot about it too, but from some reasons I am failing in it. I am remembering about that kiss every single night when I get in the bed to sleep and I can't forgot about it. Are mu feelings for Michael 'waking up' or what. It can't be happening, I don't want it. I jsut want to have a normal relationship with Jack and nothing else. I don't want Michael in my life on that way anymore. But my thoughts are one thing and my heart is another. My heart starts beating faster when I see Michael and I got nervous immediately. That's all started to happen after the kiss and I am freaking out, I don't know what to do. Actually I know, I want to be with Jack, but I so want to kiss Michael again and again.

I don't have idea what I have to do and what I am doing.

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It was our last day in London. The next day we are getting back in Australia.

I woke up and I got ready for breakfast. Ivy didn't slept in the room last night. She was with Luke, so I was alone.

I had some free time before the breakfast, so I packed some of my stuffs. Then I got out of the room and I went downstairs in the dinning room for breakfast.

I was on the last floor in the building so I took the elevator.

After few seconds in the elevator, it stopped. The door opened and I saw Michael on the other side. He was alone and he got in the elevator

"Hey" he smiled to me and he stayed next to me

I got upset immediately. In one moment I couldn't even breath. He was close to me and I could felt his perfume and I could heard his breathing. That was freaking me out.

"Don't worry, I am not going to kiss you" he said in one moment. He probably felt that I am kinda nervous and he knew about what I was.

"Who said that you can kiss me?" I wanted to act like everything's normal and I am OK. I wanted to act like I am strong and I forgot about that kiss

"No one. You just can't breath and you can't wait me to kiss you." he looked at me and he made really cute smile

"Oh, Mikey, you are so confident in yourself. Don't be, you aren't definitely the reason of my pretty nervous and happiness." I said to him and I got ready surprised of myself. I acted it very well.

"You are speaking nonsense" he smiled to me again but now, nervously

"Yeah, you was in my room last night" I lied to him. I needed to do that, he can't realize that I am nervous about him

In that moment the elevator stopped and I got out of it. I went to Ivy and Luke. They were sitting on the same table like Ashton and Calum, like always. I sat and after few seconds Michael sat too.

They all started to talk about different stuffs and I was just listening to them. Calum wasn't speaking anything, he was pretty quite and definitely he was not looking good.

"Calum are you ok?" I asked him

"Yeah, I'll be. It's just normal morning after drunk night" he laughed

"So you got so drunk last night?" I looked at him and I laughed

"It seems, I don't remember" he said

"I do." Ashton laughed

"So you wasn't drunk." Luke laughed

"Just a little. We were all night drinking and Calum got very drunk" said Ashton

We all kinda laughed

"Dude, who helped us to go n our room? I am trying to remember it hole morning." Calum asked Ashton

"Um, that math professor, the young one" said Ashton

"Mr. Styles?" Michael asked curiously.

"Yeah, he" said Ashton and I didn't knew what to do, it was end of my lie. Now Michael will found out about my lie.

"He just took you in your room and then he left?" Michael was too curiously. He was realizing that I lied to him.

"No, he was with us all night. Nice guy" said Ashton while I was holding my phone in my hand and I dropped it.

Michael laughed and he looked at me. He realized that I lied to him and know he definitely knows that I was shaking because of him.

I didn't know where to look or what to do, so I went to my room.

I was there for half hour, trying to calm down, but I couldn't. Then it came time for going out and spending the last day on this trip in London. I was avoiding Michael all the time

Jack was close to me the hole day and he was smiling to me all the time.

'I am so evil person, why am I doing that? I need to be fer with Jack. I don't wanna lose him. Forget about Michael Cara. Stop thinking about him' that were my thoughts during my last walk in London. Great, I spent my last day in Europe thinking about my problems and not enjoying.