In Plain Sight

15. Storming

POV: Kelly

Being with Sam was so easy yet so complicated. So comfortable. It's where I want to always be but where I can't stay forever. My mind knows this. My mind always reminds me of this. My heart is only feeling one thing and that is love for Sam.
It's a love I never expected but I am so happy it found me. All that is left, is for it to wreck me.

When Sam came over last night, I thought he was coming to tell me that he thought about it and forgives me. I also thought he was maybe coming to officially break up with me. Afterall he just parked and sat in the car contemplating. Instead he dropped a bomb on me.

I was angry, mostly at myself because my heart broke as soon as I smelled that cheap perfume on him and saw the lipstick smudge. When he said they only kissed, I was relieved but still hurt that my man kissed or got kissed by another woman that is not me.

Is this who he is or was this a random event? I looked over at him and he's sound asleep snuggling me on the couch as we or more accurately I, watched a movie.

My phone buzzed and brought me to the present. It's a message from Cynthia.

Girl, I need to see you. We need a girls night. We need to go out and have fun. Tonight, no excuses 💃🏾

I chuckled. Maybe going out will take my mind of things. I quickly texted her back.

Fine. Let's go out have fun tonight!

After a few minutes, Sam stirred but didn't wake up. "No no, please don't." He mumbled in his sleep. I saw little beads of sweat forming on his forehead. He's having a bad dream.

"Sam? Baby wake up. Sam?" I shook him gently. 

He startled awake and looked at me like he saw a ghost. His hands touched my face as if making sure I'm real. "Kelly?" He said softly.

"I'm here Sam, you're okay." I said touching his face softly to calm him.

He looked between my eyes before kissing me with so much passion, as if he hasn't seen me in years. I kissed him back, returning the passion. He started undressing me and trailing kisses down my body. He went on to make sweet, life affirming love to me. Any worry or anger I was feeling, slowly melting out of me.

As we lay on the couch catching our breath, I decided to ask him what happened. 

"What were you dreaming about?" I asked softly and he pulled me in closer.

"I dreamt I lost you." He said and looked me straight in my eyes.

"What do mean you lost me?"

"We were back at the site where Jackson had you. He pointed a gun at you. You told him you were J.R and when I tried to intervene...he just shot you." His voice was a whisper when he said the last part and he closed his eyes in pain. A knot formed in my stomach and a little flicker of fear passed in my mind.

"Sam," I said hugging him, "baby that won't happen." I added softly.

"What if it does and I can't protect you? It would kill me. I don't understand your world Kelly and that makes me nervous because I don't know if you're in danger or not." He said sitting up.

"I am not in danger. My work just requires a lot of anonymity and discretion." I also sat up to try and assure him.

"Kelly some men broke into your house and tried to kill you. Ofcourse there's danger." He reminded me and I just stared at him.

"So what do you do?" He asked and I wonder how much I should say, he's still FBI after all.

"Sam, I don't think we should be discussing that."