Broken 💔

Chapter 24

Manik's pov

"Nandini I told you even before that your past has no affect on this, on us, it will not influence my feelings princess" I said hearing her

"I know I know you did but please just please Manik" she said tearing up a little

"Okay okay shh" I moved my hand from her back and wiped her tears away

"Promise me that if even for a second you have a doubt about me you will tell me"

"Doubt about what"

"About leaving me"

"Nandini I want to hear your past, but I can bet my whole existence on the fact that your past will not make me want to leave you but yes I promise you" I said linking my pinky with hers

She leaned forward and kissed my cheek, she caressed the place she just kissed.

"I was raped multiple times" she said and I was numb

There was nothing in my head, no words were coming out, there was absolutely nothing, it felt like I was maybe underwater, I couldn't hear anything, not even the noises form the floor beneath.

Everything stayed still, nothing was moving, my thoughts weren't forming into sentences. There was a fucking storm in my head.

"Over and over and over again, it was like a nightmare happening every single day, every single night. Manik you know when people have midterms and things and they are scared that they will fail but then when results come out they know definitely if they have passed or failed so they can plan the rest of their semester accordingly. But for me it was something that was unknown, the fear of the unknown. I never knew how bad the next morning would be for me and to my surprise it just kept getting worse" she said with a dry chuckle

The second she said that I knew I would do fucking anything in this world to protect her, to have her safe but I was not gonna lets those fuckers get away with this bullshit.

"When Mumma passed away, I was all alone even though I was living with my cousins and mama mami, the love Mumma had could not be replaced. I took a long time to understand that Mumma was no longer gonna be there for me, and once I did I knew I wanted to come to this college because she wanted me to do my best and she wanted me to be familiarized with music. I knew I didn't have money and my mama mami didn't like me so I started studying harder so I could apply to this university. You know manik everything was okay well it seemed okay but then once they saw I was getting better and starting to eat a little things went rogue. One of my cousins friends used to come over all the time, but I thought of him as my brother but he wasn't. One day my uncle aunty had to go out of town and my cousin's friends came over like they usually did. But that day they were drinking a lot so I stayed in my room. One of his friends came up and tried forcing himself on me, I tried umm I tried a lot to push him off but he wouldn't let go. I screamed and begged for someone but the rest of them had passed out. He raped me for the first time when I was 15" she said with tears in her eyes

I cupped her cheeks caressing them with my thumb.

"He he killed me manik, he touched me, he left me bleeding there in the room. But you know what's funny" she said wiping her tears

"It didn't stop there, that was the beginning of it all. My cousin found me the next day in that state, he didn't take me to the doctor oh god no, you know what he did, he told me not to tell, he threatened me not to tell. I stayed quiet so that I would have a roof over my head and some food. It happened again with a different friend, then another, then another, then my cousin itself and it kept fucking going. They fucking raped me every single week every time I thought it was over it got worse. It went on for 6 months, 6 fucking months but then it stopped not because they felt bad but because I was not eating so they told me that I was jsut bones and not satisfying them anymore. I tried getting up everyday, I tried but nothing worked. I tried drowning myself in the bathtub but they found me" she was wailing while telling me

"That's when they gave me this scar" she said pointing at the one on her arm

"They said my life was not my own, it was theirs, his, that I was their whore who deserved every bit of what I was getting. Those 6 months were worse than hell for me, after that they stopped but just the raping part, they would come in my room and take their frustration out on me by beating me. the best thing was mama mami knew, but I didn't know they knew so one day I told them and you know what they did manik, they said they would sell me to a brothel if I didn't keep quiet so I kept quiet. I fucking stayed there for till 4 weeks ago, getting beaten right left and centre every other day. They made sure they never hit my face becasue I had a councillor coming in every month to see if everything was okay since I was underage and becasue of him I was doing online schooling. I applied here without letting them know and I got in. This one night I ran away from there taking whatever I could find and I spent a few days on the road jsut walking and asking for free rides"

I couldn't believe my ear and eyes, this tiny little girl went through so much shit, more than I could even comprehend.

"They killed me manik, they fucking killed me" she screamed crying