Broken 💔

Chapter 32

He locked the door behind him so I didn't have to get up to lock it.

I tried pulling back but she just wouldn't let me, she was still silently crying, her whole body was shivering for some reason, I knew it wasn't because she was cold because her arms were warm now.

"Nandini you have to let go" her grip tightened a lot around my arm

"No no please" she cried

"Princess, please let go, I have to get you some food, we have to eat"

"No you will leave" she said

"I won't I promise, please"

She took a few minutes and then lifted her head off my shoulder resting her head back on the bed rest but her grip on my arm was still solid

"Okay hold onto my left arm" I said and she held onto my left arm

I put a plate on the bed and some food on it. Her nose scrunched up seeing the food and I felt like shit for seeing how weak she has gotten, not emotionally but physically.

I lifted my hands up and wiped her face that was full of tears. I got some rice in the spoon and fed her food. She ate very little, less than she used to three weeks ago.

She moved her head to the side when she couldn't eat anymore, I didn't force her to eat more at the moment but I did grab her an iron pill and some orange juice

"Have it" I said and she frowned

"It's jsut an iron pill" she nodded and gulped it down

"You eat too" she said and I shook my head at her

"We have to talk first" she nodded

"Im sorry, I am so sorry. I swear on everything I didn't mean what I said. I know you would never rape me let alone touch me without permission. I just, when alia said what she said, my head was flooding with bad things from the past. That's not an excuse I promise but I let my horrible past overpower my head. I am so sorry that I yelled at you and said what I said. I didn't actually mean any of that. you can be upset at me, yell at me scream at me but please don't ignore me. I love you Manik, I really do, these three weeks were hell for me, worse than my past even. I can't live without you Manik, I just cannot. Please please I beg you, please don't leave me" she cried

"Shh shhh Nandini I need you to listen to me shhh stop crying"

she wiped her face with her shivering hands

"I wasn't ignoring you I promise. I just needed time to understand everything. When you said you are just fresh virgin meat or whatever it hurt a lot because I genuinely care about you and I genuinely love you. Hearing that you didn't even take a moment to talk to me or ask if what you heard was true hurt me a lot. If this was a fling or if I didn't care and you were just a hook up or bet I wouldn't give two shits Nandini. But you are so special to me, you are the first girl and the last girl I say I love you to, count our kids out but I fucking love you Nandini. I know and I understand what you would have gone through when she said that bullshit but we cannot do this Nandini" I said and she flipped shit

She jumped up and grabbed onto my t shirt, tears flew from her eyes

"No no please forgive me, don't leave me please"

"Shh im not leaving you" I said caressing her hair

"No no I know you are, you said we cannot do this" she said hiccuping

"No baby, thats not what I meant" she hiccuped a little

"Nandini shh please stop crying, nobody is leaving anybody, please" I said wiping her face

I held onto her face, cupping her cheeks.

"I meant that you cannot hear things form others and go on without talking to me first. Im not saying you were wrong, im saying that I wish you came up to me and told me what alia said and asked me if it was true"

"I know, im sorry I promise you it won't happen again" she said holding onto me tighter

"You promise that no matter what anyone says to you about me or anything in general you will come up to me and share it. You will yell at me and get angry with me but you will never assume things" I asked and she nodded

"I promise" she whispered

"I promise I will not do this again, we will always talk it through okay"

"Okay" she whispered

"Now tell me why you have been so careless about your health, when was your last proper meal" I asked

"With you" she said confusing me

Then it hit me, she is talking about brunch, that brunch we had together.

"Nandini"

"Im sorry" she whispered

"This is not good at all, you cannot be this careless nandini"

"I can't live without you, it felt like I was a dead body"

"Shh don't ever say that. It won't happen again, it won't"

"You forgive me" she asked

"Darling I had forgiven you that day only, I just needed some time to think. Im sorry that I wasn't good at communicating"

"It was my fault"

"Both our faults, can we agree on that" I asked and she nodded