His Savior

You're Supposed To Love Me

~Laslo~

               Last night was pure torture. This damn mate bond is hell. All night long, I felt a pull to Nona. Every cell in my body, every ounce of blood, every hair follicle longed to be near Nona. My skin itches, begging to touch her, to brush up against her. I felt a chill in my body, with something telling me that only the heat from Nona would make it go away. As much as I.......Nero and I want Zahara, thoughts of her weren't enough to erase the images of Nona. They couldn't erase the raw need that was growing in me.

               I got up early this morning; got up while it was still dark outside. I thought maybe a run through the forest would help me forget, help me maintain my distance. I should have known this was not going to be that easy. Instead of the run helping to clear my mind, it brought me right where I didn't want to be. I found myself in a pair of basketball shorts, sitting in Nona's room, just watching her sleep. Her scent encompassed me, and sleep took over.

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               The bright lights are piercing my eyelids. Damn, I must have sat directly in front of the window without realizing it. The brightness can only mean that it must be late. I jolt awake, sitting straight up in the chair. I look around the room and see Nona's green eyes boring into me. There is brightness in her eyes and a look of relief on her face. Her red hair is all over her head, making it obvious that she hasn't been awake for long. Her heartbeat is slow and steady. "I knew you would come for me." I say nothing but continue to look at her. The intensity of my gaze must make her nervous because she starts to fidget and shift in the bed. "I don't know who took me, but I knew that you'd come save me." I still say nothing, and Nona starts to look at her clasped hands in her lap. She thinks a stranger has kidnaped her. I guess I can understand how she could come to that conclusion. She wouldn't jump to the conclusion that I would keep her locked up like this. Why would a mate keep someone locked up in this way? I don't know about others, but I know why it's a necessary move for me.

                 Nona tries to look around the room and avoid my eyes, but she keeps looking back at me. I make no move, no sound. I don't really know what to do or say at this point. I would love nothing more than to jump into bed with her. Feel her soft skin in my hands. I can envision myself caressing her cheeks and moving them down her neck to her breasts. She has ample, and I bet they are soft to the touch. I imagine running my hand down her stomach and around her waist. I bet that would turn her on and have her arousal flood the room. I would pay attention to every part of her except for her naughty area. I would make her beg me to touch her there.

               I feel myself start to get hard, and I have to avert my thoughts before my arousal is evident. Wearing basketball shorts, it would be too obvious, and I don't want her to know how much she turns me on. I have to stay strong and keep on task, or all will be lost. I can't get caught up in this mate bond because she is not enough. She is gorgeous and, I'd imagine, sweet, but she is not of Alpha blood. She will not bring strength to my pack, and that is too important to me.

               I clear my throat and shift in the chair. Nona stops shifting around and looks right at me. "You are fine. You should have everything you need right here. If there is something you don't have, just let me know and I will get it for you." The startled look in her eyes is almost enough to unnerve me, but I work on staying strong.

               "You.....you mean......you knew I was here? You knew I was kidnapped?" I don't respond, not because I can't, but because I'm not sure what is best to say. I know that no matter what my response ends up being, it will devastate her. I'm not clueless to think that I can explain this away, but I hope the mate bond works in my favor.

               "Your family will not have to worry about you. I made sure to tell them that you are safe, and I will make sure they get anything they may need." The more I talk, the bigger Nona's eyes get. I will try to come to see you once or twice a week, but there may be times when I'm unable. You will have a way to contact me, so don't worry if you don't see me, running the pack is a big responsibility." I see the tears start to build in her eyes, and I feel a pain in my chest. This is hurting me more than I thought it could. I don't like to see her hurt or in pain, and the fact that I'm the reason why she is feeling this way is making the pain that much worse.

               I stand up and walk over to the bed. The closer I get to Nona, the more she scoots back. I won't lie and act like this didn't hurt. Even Nero starts to whine in my head with the realization that our mate is trying to stay far away from us. I stop about a foot from the bed and just look at her. "I know that isn't what you thought would happen, but just know that this is necessary. You are my mate, and I need you close, but.........but I need someone stronger to mate with. I need....." I sigh and look down before taking a deep breath and look back at Nona. "I need someone stronger to make the pack strong." With those words, tears start to fall down her cheeks. Tear after tear falls, and with each drop, my stomach drops. A sob escapes Nona's lips, and I swear it is like my soul is being torn apart. I turn and start to walk towards the door. Right when my hand hits the knob, I hear Nona. She isn't more than a whisper, but with my wolf hearing, I hear everything she says.

               "I...I'm your mate. I was given to you by the Moon Goddess herself. How can I not be enough for you? How can you want more? You have me locked in here like some kind of animal when you are supposed to love me." I don't speak, and I don't turn around to look at her knowing that if I do, my resolve would shatter. I take a step into the doorway, and a lamp flies past my head and hits the wall to my right. The lamp shatters on impact and falls to the floor. "YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO LOVE ME!!!!!!!!" I quickly step out of the room and close the door. I take a minute to take a few deep breaths then I make my way to the main door to exit the house. All the while, I can hear Nona sobbing, and I swear my heart breaks right along with her.

This is for the best.

I know, Nero, I know. I just didn't think it would be this hard.

She will understand soon.......she has to understand. Overcome with emotion, I shift and take off into the woods, making my way back to the pack and packhouse. This is for the best, it has to be.