AFRAID {a.i.}

CHAPTER EIGHT

Song of the Chapter: My Dilemma 2.0 - Selena Gomez & The Scene.

Sunday, Sunday, Sunday. Oh how I love sleep in Sunday's... If that was even possible in this house. My door slammed open and Jeff came running in with a cup of coffee.

"And the princess awakes." Jeff called as I sat up in bed. I laughed and took the coffee.

"The princess would be sleeping if she had the chance in this house." I took a sip of my coffee and smiled at Jeff. "But good morning Jeff."

"Good morning Princess Brooklyn. What is one planning to do today?" Jeff was always the cheerful one. The one you could look to for a joke in an awkward situation or the one who would make you smile even in the hardest of times.

"Well I believe one could be getting ice creams with Ashton." I smiled widely at Jeff. He started to drink his coffee, also.

"Oh, is Ashton the mysterious guy from the party on Friday?" Jeff wriggled his eyebrows. Inside my stomach turned and I could feel a shiver down my spine. I shook it off.

"Not quite Jeff." I smiled. He looked over at my bedside clock. 10.05am.

"I shall leave the princess to get her face on. Have a good day sweetie." Jeff kissed my forehead and walked towards the door. "Remember it's always polite to watch after the butler as he leaves." He joked.

"The princess is learning." I called after him. I took my phone from the bedside cabinet and put my coffee down.

iMessage from Ashton Irwin
Im picking you up in an hour. Ice cream time!!! :) x

I smiled. Maybe Jeff waking me up wasn't such a bad thing. I jumped out of bed and stepped into the bathroom. I started to run a nice hot bath. I had time, since Ashton was probably going to be late. Whilst letting the bath tub fill, I picked out my outfit. High neck top with a skater skirt. My shoes would obviously be my white converse. And I'll probably wear my hair in high bun. After a few minutes my bath was ready and I hopped in. It was relaxing to have a few minutes alone that were quiet and peaceful.

Ashton picked me up about 40 minutes later and he greeted me with a smile. He opened the truck door for me and I couldn't help but feel loved. This was adorable. He was really taking in to consideration how much getting to know each other meant to me. I sat in the truck and Ashton jumped in the other side.

"So what's today's plan?" I questioned. Ashton smiled and the engine roared.

"We are taking a walk on the beach." Ashton smirked and looked at me. I smiled and looked back at him.

"Well who knew, Irwin is a sucker for romance." I commented, winking sarcastically. Ashton rolled his eyes and focused on the road, laughing.

"How did you brother take it then?" Ashton sighed. I shrugged and looked out the window. The area I lived in was so beautiful. The scenery was perfect.

"I didn't even have to say anything.. It was like he expected it, I guess it just makes me stupid for not noticing." I bit my lip and stretched out my legs.

"You're not stupid Brooke, you're just caring and you see the good in people. I like to think I'm like that." Ashton smirked, causing me to laugh.

"You? Seeing good people?" I chuckled and he rolled his eyes.

"I seen the good in you, didn't I?" He glanced over at me and I smiled. My heart would beat a little faster when he said something.

"That's because there's no bad." I winked, Ashton smiled and pulled up in front of an ice cream place. I watched him as he pulled out some cash. "How much is it?"

"No, I'm paying, what do you want?" Ashton insisted, I shrugged. He smiled once again, causing my heart to melt. "I'll get you whatever I get. Wait here." I nodded and he quickly ran into the ice cream place. I looked out onto the beach and seen an elderly couple holding hands. I grinned. My mums dream was to turn out like them, with a beautiful husband, and two little kids. I guess she got half of it. I felt pain shoot through me. My mum was a good woman. I looked to the other end of the beach to see another couple with a baby, smiling and laughing. I looked away and sighed. Everyone seemed happy and that's all I ever wanted for my family one day. A few minutes later, I saw Ashton next to the car door. I opened it and hopped out.

"You okay?" Ashton worried. I nodded and smiled, taking the ice cream. "I got you cookie dough."

"Mm, my favourite." Ashton locked the truck and we walked down to the beach. After a few minutes of silence, I spoke up. "Do you see yourself with a family one day?"

"I don't know if this your way of pulling me into your fantasy," Ashton smirked, "but yeah, I do. I want a big family. What about you Miss Montez." I liked his answer.

"I want two or more kids, a family like me and my brother but different." I answered as we walked by the water.

"How so?" Ashton seemed curious and it was cute.

"You know without the pain. Without my dad.." I sighed, and he nodded.

"Pain will always be around Brooke, but sometimes it can be prevented." Ashton takes a seat on the sand and pulls me down beside him.

"Is being the typical bad boy your way of preventing your pain?" I comment. Ashton fell silent and shifted. I watched as he ate his ice cream. I put my hand on his leg. "I didn't mean it in a harsh way..."

"I know. It's just hard to talk about." Ashton looked over the sea and frowned. I rested my head on his shoulder. I finished my ice cream and sighed.

"You don't have to talk about anything."

"I know." Ashton paused and rested his head on top of mine. "I do feel sometimes sleeping with girls with no emotion helps. It's like the pain I share is released. Only in the short term though and then it comes back. My mum left my dad and my grandma to look after me. I have no idea where she went or if she's still alive but it hurt me. So the pain she left for me I try to push away through hurting others, I guess."

"What about your dad?" I questioned.

"He doesn't give two shits about me, I'm lucky if I see him for 5 minutes a month. It's just me and my grandma." Ashton lifted his head and I looked up to him. His eyes finally fell back to mine. I smiled.

"You're grandma seems like mine. I bet she's as lovely as you." I gained a smile from Ashton as he shook his head.

"What is it about you Brooke, how do you do this to me?" Ashton looked away and I chuckled.

"Do what Ashton?" I bit my lip and blushed.

"Make me feel at home." Ashton paused looking at the ground. I watched his body loosen from his normal tensing position. I smiled.

"Maybe you see the good of your mum in me..." I suggested. Ashton clenched his jaw.

"There was no good." Ashton looked at me and I shook my head.

"There was, that's where the pain comes from." I nodded and licked my lips. Ashton watched my lips.

"Why are you so right?" Ashton chuckled. "And please don't lick your lips..." Ashton trailed off.

"Aw Ash, does it turn you on?" I teased and leaned in, kissing his cheek. "You're a lot more than everyone thinks Ashton Irwin, a lot more."