AFRAID {a.i.}

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

Note: Ashton's point of view is in italics.

Song of the Chapter: I Needed You - Blackbear.

Once the band was signed, our holiday to L.A., and mine and Ashton's relationship seemed to be filled with meetings and endless phone calls. It was bad of me to think this way but I just couldn't imagine the fame he will possibly gain now. I feel like losing him now when I've just got him would be painful and I didn't want to experience that.

"What are thinking about?" Ashton sat himself next to me on the bed. His head rested on my shoulder as I scrolled through my Facebook on my laptop.

"Nothing." I lied and he gently kissed my neck.

"Don't lie to me, Brooke." Ashton sighed and I rested my head on his. I bit my lip.

"Just, I miss you Ashton-" His head came off of my shoulder and faced me.

"What do you mean? I'm right here." Ashton laughed, loudly. I didn't look at him, just continued to go through my Facebook.

"No I just... I never see you anymore." I could see his hand push my laptop shit and he placed it at the end of the bed. I couldn't held but chuckle when he sat on my legs, facing me. He smiled.

"Oh Brooke. I may not see you everyday now but that's just how it has to be." Ashton's hands cupped my head in his hand and I nodded.

"It's just I don't want it to be like this." His hands fell from my face and I looked down. Suddenly I felt him crawl off of me and I noticed him sit at the end of the bed.

"We can't all get what we want, Brooklyn." Ashton snapped. His hands ran through his hair. What did I simply do wrong?

"I never said we could." I tried to rest my head on his back but he stood up, looking out the houses window. Today was the last day here.

"Well stop acting so stubborn." Ashton massaged his forehead and I looked down to my feet.

"I'm not... I'm just-"

"Controlling." Ouch. Ashton went to push the door but stopped. I flinched. What even caused this? Me?

"Ashton what are you saying?" I quietly croaked.

"What I'm saying is ever since I took your virginity you seem to think you took my control." Ashton yelled. I stood up and walked to him.

"Ashton stop." I tried to hold him but he pushed me away. I held my balance. What the fuck?

"No I'm tired of being controlled. This was a bad idea." Ashton walked past me straight to the door.

"This? You mean us?" I yelled. I could feel tears brewing. I don't even know how or why this was happened.

"Yes Brooke. You knew this was my dream. Yet you're making me feel guilty. You seem to think you can keep me under a loop. Maybe you get that from your father." The spite in his voice set me back a few steps. His face fell and my vision went blurry through my tears. "Brooke I'm so sorry.. I didn't mean to..."

"Get out Ashton." I spoke quietly, turning away from him. How dare he even mention my dad.

"You're nothing like him Brooklyn Ava, I promis-" I cut him off with my shout.

"Don't call me that. Just get out." He didn't move, I could feel his presence behind me. "Now." I screamed. He left. I watched the trees fly from side to side outside my window. My eyes fell to Ashton outside on his phone. I could of sworn he was crying. I stepped away pfrom the window and walked to my bathroom. I looked at myself and breathed out.