AFRAID {a.i.}

CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE

Song of the Chapter: One Life - Justin Bieber.

"Zac, what are you doing here?" I glared. His hands were in his pocket and his blue t-shirt gripped onto his skin because of the wind. He smiled and Ashton's face dropped. I had forgot Zac's comment.

"I just thought I'd stop by and say hello." Zac looked at Ashton and Ashton looked back, gripping my waist.

"That's obviously not the only reason you're here." I gritted my teeth. Ashton pulled me back.

"Come on, Brooke lets just go." Ashton insisted. He was hiding something. My heartbeat quickened and I shook my head.

"I want to hear what he has to say." I snapped and Zac laughed. Ashton glared at him and clenched his fists on each side of him.

"I'm not sure you do, sweetie." Zac placed his hand on my cheek and I slapped it away.

"I swear to god man, if you touch her or call her that again, I'm going to-" I pushed Ashton behind me.

"Ashton." I warned him and he nodded, rubbing his cheeks. He was angry.

"Oh, touch her like you touched Jessica." Zac tapped his head, sarcastically. I squinted. Ashton was silent.

"What are you talking about?" I stuttered. Zac laughed.

"Oh so he didn't tell you. The first night Ashton came from L.A. Luke had a party. My friend Jessica went and guess who had their tongue down her throat and hand down her pants." I flinched at his words. Ashton closed his eyes and sighed.

"Wait, you came to me that day. Then you went straight to this Jessica girl and fucked her?" I turned to Ashton and Zac laughed. My anger built up. "Zac, piss off. You've ruined me enough, now get away from me and from Ashton." I waited for him to walk away. The smirk never left his face.

"Brooke..." Ashton looked at me with tears in his eye. That was enough to set me off.

"Well...did you?" I yelled and Ashton shook his head.

"I didn't have sex with her Brooke. I just kissed her." Ashton muttered, I knew he hoped I didn't hear. My breathing quickened.

"What, whilst you had her hands down her underwear?" I spat. Ashton looked along the water and kicked the sand.

"I just... I thought it was you okay. I was pissed out of my head. I even called her Brooklyn. for fucks sake. Then I pushed her away. It lasted less than 3 minutes. I swear." Ashton grabbed my arm and I snatched it away.

"Don't touch me." I walked away. Ashton followed me. I wiped my tears before picking up my pace. My hands carried my dress so I wouldn't trip.

"Brooke. It meant nothing." I stopped and turned.

"You think that makes a difference? You still kissed her. You still did what you said you would never to me. I broke it off and cried myself to sleep that night. Whilst you, you went and fucked another girl." I shouted in his face. He grabbed me, I couldn't move.

"I would never ever have sex with another girl Brooke. I would never forgive myself. I haven't fucked another girl since I met you. You're the only one in the past few months, I swear. Yes I kissed her, but I was angry. We split up. We weren't together. I was going to tell you Brooke, I promise. I just didn't want to ruin tonight and you were rejecting my calls." Ashton kept hold of me no matter how much I tried to get out of it.

"I thought I was the only one you wanted to touch, to kiss." I felt so vulnerable. Tears streamed down my cheek. He let go of me and wiped them from my cheeks.

"And you still are. You know I get bad when I'm drunk. You know I turn into that fucking mess of a boy. I'm my fathers son." Ashton cried. I wanted to hate but deep down, I knew he was dealing with it his way, and I had to respect that even if it killed me. But fuck, he even called the girl Brooklyn.

"You may be that. But you are nothing like him Ashton." I wiped his tears and sighed. "I believe you."

"You what?"

"I believe it didn't mean anything." I can't believe I was forgiving him. Well to be honest, I wasn't forgiving him.

"No Brooklyn, I'm not letting forgive me like this." Ashton backed away.

"Ashton I'm not forgiving you." I stepped towards him. "I'm going to forget it happened. You were drunk, upset, I threw a lot on you that night. I don't blame you. I blame myself."

"This wasn't your fault, Brooke."

"I love you Ashton." I put my arms around his waist and he pulled me in tight. This was all I wanted. His arms around me. His embrace made me feel at home.

"I love you too." Ashton kissed my forehead. "I'm sorry."

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Ashton drove me home because I was tired, but I managed to fall asleep in his truck. It was silent and his hand held mine in my lap. My sleep was interrupted when I heard the door slam. I was in Ashton's arms. He looked down at me and smiled. I held onto his blazer and cuddled into him, closing my eyes once again. All of sudden I was on my bed. I opened my eyes and Ashton walked into my wardrobe. I couldn't help but close my eyes again. Ashton's footsteps caused me to open my eyes. He handed me his hoodie that he found in my closet. I smiled. I reached for the back of my dress but struggled. I was so tired.

"Stand up." He chuckled. I did so and turned my back to him. My breath hitched as his hand grazed his hand across my back, moving my hair. His lips pressed against my shoulders as he unzipped my dress. I bit my lip and he let the dress drop to the ground. "Bra on or off?" His voice was almost smirking at me. I realised how awkward this was bra.

"Off." I answered and he unclipped my bra, also letting it all. He turned me and I couldn't help but feel nervous.

"You're so beautiful." His cold hands were pressed on my waist as he kissed me lightly. In a sudden he put the hoodie over me and passed me my shorts.

"What are you doing?" I breathed whilst putting my shorts on and he smiled. His arms wrapped around me, lifting me up bridal style.

"I'm taking it slow as well as taking you to bed." Ashton placed me in my bed and tucked the duvet over me. His lips pressed against my forehead. "Goodnight, love." I smiled and closed my eyes. But as I heard him walk away, I sat up.

"Ashton." I called and he turned. "Stay with me." Ashton took off his blazer and stripped to his underwear. I couldn't help but giggle.

"I thought you'd never ask. You were killing me then." Ashton crawled in next to me. I shuffled closer and placed my head on his chest. His arm snaked around me and pulled me closer.

"Just don't ditch me this time, yeah?" I chuckled and he kissed my forehead.

"Well you already know I love you so I doubt highly that would happen." My stomach filled with butterflies. It was different this time. Something was different. He cared more about my feelings.

NOTE: I'm ever so sorry that I forgot to update yesterday, it was a very busy day and therefore, two updates will be coming your way today. Also, please let me know what you think, I don't think that much of you have read this far? Comment if you have. Thank you for 400 ~ Becki xx