AFRAID {a.i.}

CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN

Song of the Chapter: Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day.

Note: This chapter is in Ashton's view.

"Ashton!" I heard Emily scream. A crowd covered the bottom of Luke's staircase. I tried to push through them all but it was too hard. I was beginning to get frustrated. I shouldn't of let Brooke walk off, she's probably upset about Jessica. Why am I such a dick? I heard gasps and I finally pushed through the crowd. Emily had tears sprawled down her cheek. Brooke's hair covered her face, but I knew it was her. She was lying on the floor, on her front. I could feel my face fall. Emily looked up the stairs. I followed her view. Zac was stood at the top of the stairs. He had his hand over his mouth and that was enough to set me off. Our eye contact locked and he froze.

"You did not fucking touch her." I started walking to the stairs but I was pulled back. "Dude get the fuck off of me." I turned to see Jessica. The sight disgusted me. I snatched my hand away from her.

"Ashton, get over here. We have a baby to save here." My heart dropped. I forgot completely that this could effect the baby. I dropped to my knees and sat with her. I pulled her hair out of her face and saw her eyes were shut. She had blacked out. I picked her up and stood up.

"Everyone move the fuck out of my way." I yelled and directed myself the door. Emily ran ahead and opened the door. Luke stopped Emily and offered to drive. Right now, I didn't need their  love affair to affect my baby's life. I pushed passed them and walked to Luke's car. "Luke, you've been drinking. I'm driving." Emily sat in the back and I slowly put Brooke's head on Emily's lap and tucked her safely in the car. I shut the door and got in the front. Luke passed me the keys and got in the passenger seat. I started the engine and slammed my door.

"Dude, you aren't driving if you are angry." Luke glared. I rolled my eyes and sped down the road. Luke groaned but I ignored him. What if my baby.... I can't even say it. Zac, I'm going to fucking kill him.

"What the fuck was she doing with Zac?" I yelled. My grip was tight on the wheel as I turned a corner. The wheels shrieked beneath us and Luke nervously held the seat.

"Well last time I checked she was storming away from you." Emily cried. I looked ahead and didn't answer her. I could not even blame myself for this right now, Zac, he is the one to blame and once I know Brooke's okay, I'm going to kill him. My legs nervously jumped up and down. I stopped at a stop sign and hit the steering wheel. "Fuck, no, no, no." I turned my head to Emily. She stared down at her hand. It was covered in blood. I froze. That meant one thing. Luke turned and his eyes widened.

"Ashton... Fucking hurry up." Luke's punched my arm and I slowly turned, driving away. I couldn't focus. My eyes were looking ahead but all I could picture was that scan photo.

"My baby... He fucking killed my baby." I used my anger to speed forward. I turned every corner quickly. I needed to get my baby safe. Because if I don't, I'm not going to be a dad... I'm not going to be a dad.

"Ashton please don't say that." Emily screamed into my ear. I didn't even flinch. I was still, yet I was driving. Luke looked at me and his eyes saddened. He patted my shoulder and tried to encourage me to keep going. I looked ahead and just kept going. When I pulled up at the hospital, I didn't move. Luke nudged me but I ignored him. He nodded and quickly helped Emily out before carrying Brooke in his arms. I heard the door slam.

"You just need to leave him, he'll come in. He won't let this baby go." I heard Luke whisper. I watched them walk towards the hospital. Brooke was unconscious still, her head was slung back and blood dragged down her leg. My eyes watered. My baby was going to lose our baby. I continued to stare at them until they ran into the building. Tears fell from my eyes. What was wrong for me? I needed to be with my Brooke. She needed me but I was sat here feeling sorry for myself. I threw my head back and punched the steering wheel, screaming. I gained a few stares but I just blacked them out. I laid my head on the steering wheel and froze. This can not happen to me. This can not happen to her. I pulled the keys out of the ignition and rushed out. I sprinted to hospital building, after slamming Luke's car door. The woman behind the desk stared at me as I came to a host in front of her.

"The girl who just came in here. Montez. Brooke, I mean Brooklyn, where did she go?" I stuttered. The woman looked around and tried not to focus on me. She could probably see how white my knuckles were turning.

"I'm afraid I can't tell you that sir." She muttered and I threw my balled fist on the desk. She flinched and looked up. "Unless you can give me your details and show you are family." Was she being for real?

"Look that girl and guy who brought her in aren't family. If anything, I'm more than fucking family than they are. She's carrying my baby, now get me in there before I trash this whole hospital. My baby could be fucking dead and you're saying I'm not family are you-" I gritted my teeth and she raised to her feet adjusting her dress.

"Sir. Calm down." She put her hands out as a sort of defence. I huffed and brushed my hands through my hair, turning away from her. "Straight down the hall and turn left, once you reach the end of that corridor, you'll see a waiting area, you're friends should be there. I do not know anything else." She whispered. I looked at her, however before I could thank her, my feet took me to her directions. As soon as I got to the waiting area, I saw the sign. Pregnancy ward. Why were they bringing her here? I walked to the reception.

"My girlfriend, where is she?" I said to the man behind the counter. I was fed up with this already. He looked up and continued to stare at me, trying to look for clues. "Brooklyn Montes, where is she?" I yelled and he sat still. I watched his hands grasp some paperwork. He looked down and back up.

"I'm not too sure sir, I'm sorry." He replied. I groaned loudly. "I can-"

"Ashton." Emily called, causing me to turn. She had tears down her cheeks and her leg was covered in blood. I flinched at the sight. I walked to her and she hugged me. "They've taken her straight to surgery, I'm scared Ashton, they kept saying, that, uh they kept." Emily struggled to talk. I wrapped my arms around her and looked at Luke.

"What did they keep saying?" I pulled away and left my hands on her upper arms. She looked up and cried more.

"That, that she- she lost a lot of blood and the baby..they don't know what's, what's going to happen." My hands fell. I looked ahead of her. My eyelids shut slowly before they opened again.

"My baby... My baby?" I stared into the distance. She sniffed and nodded. Like grabbed her and held her as she cried. I turned and walked the way I came in. Zac was not getting away with this.

"Ashton, stop!" Luke yelled after me but I pretended he said nothing and continued walking. I got to the entrance and the woman behind the desk smiled at me, nervously. I tried to smile but I couldn't, it was no use even trying. I sighed and walked out. It was raining, typical. I walked to the car but got shoved back to the hospital door.

"You are not fucking leaving her now." Michael cussed. I looked up at him and his eyes saddened. "Mate, she needs you, Zac can be dealt with later. Please stay with her, Ash, please." Michael practically begged. My hair was already drenched from the rain. My shirt was barely covered by my leather jacket so I was soaked. I sighed and put my hands on my face.

"I really wanted to be a dad." I couldn't believe I was crying in front of Michael. But even more so, I couldn't believe he hugged me.

"And you still could be, who's to say that can't save him or her?" Michael patted my back and pulled away. "And anyway, you're going to be a dad one day mate, I know it."

"Thanks Michael." I wiped my face. I'm such a mess. He smiled and patted my back once more.

"Come on. Your girlfriends in there." Michael leaded us back into the building and I followed. He was right. She needed me right now and more so, I needed her right now. Michael was silent as we walked back to the waiting area. I noticed Dr. Mount talking to Emily and Luke. When his eyes fell onto me, he stopped. Luke and Emily turned and Emily was a little more calmed now than before.

"Ashton, so good to see you, but sadly it's not a good circumstances." Dr. Mount shook my hand and I just nodded. "I was just saying to Emily and....Luke, we will be taking her into surgery now. I can't promise the baby will be saved. But we will do anything we can to save him."

"Him?" My eyes widened and he smiled, reassuring me.

"Yes Ashton, we will do anything to save your baby boy." Dr. Mount rushed to the operating theatre and I turned to Emily. She smiled.

"You could be a father of a beautiful baby boy, ashton, I'm so happy for you." Emily but her hand on my shoulder and looked down. I went from delighted to sad.

Could be.
I could be a father to a beautiful baby boy.