Loki x Yn imagines/ oneshots

Loki helps you with a panic attack

You had a very rough child hood and on this day 4 years ago you escaped your toxic house hold. Today was the day of some asgardian ball you had to go to. You didn't want to tell Loki but you were really nervous all these people, you weren't great with people in the first place and you had recently been captured and while you were kidnapped you were physically and emotional abused and it showed on you body. You had bruises everywhere and had (lost or gained) a lot of weight, you looked awful you thought as you looked into the mirror. You could hear your mother voice in your head 'you don't deserve any of this', 'your an unlovable monster', 'you look so ugly', 'look at your pimples, thighs, brows, neckline, waist, hair, body hair, forehead, arms legs, stomach fat', 'there's no way someone could actually dare you without cheating on you for someone hotter', 'you don't deserve any of this your a monster', 'you don't do anything for anyone', 'you should just kill yourself.'
You looked at yourself up and down thinking to yourself there's no way I can look good for tonight, Loki will be so embarrassed to be seen with me. I know I don't deserve any of this.
You hear another voice, 'your just going to mess it up you know that right I mean look at you, you act like your life is such a mess there are people going through so much worse, you do deserve everything you get I mean honestly, do you think anyone really tried to save you, do you think anyone really wants you back? I know I don't. Why are you even here? They wouldn't of all left if you were worth staying for, everyone else will leave too, you know that right? Your a waste of space.' The voice says getting louder and louder. Then the ash backs start, the fighting, the running, listening to your parents fight and fight while trying to protect your siblings. No one understood. Your father hitting you, your mother screaming at you. No one believed you. The over lapping voices of the fights what they told you it was too much.
You started pacing, fiddling with the ring on your finger not wanting Loki to see you but also knowing you needed to start getting ready if you wanted to look at least a tiny bit better. Your breathing fastens as you back against the wall trying to breath, the voices are getting louder and louder as tears escape your eyes you cover your mouth trying to make your sobs seem quieter you crying on the floor now as you start to shake a bit, you don't know what to do and your panicking, you feel like your going to pass out and are falling away from reality. Your vision is gone and your feeling really hot. All you can hear are the voices. No one's come to help you say to yourself, your not worth saving, just k*ll yourself, no one will notice or care, I know I won't.
'Darling where are you?' You hear Loki ask from down the hall. You try to muffle your sobs but you can hear his footsteps. Oh no, you think to yourself, I don't want him to know. Loki has helped you with panic attacks before but this ball is very important to him, and you don't want him to feel guilty. 'Yn? Woah woah hey. It's ok I'm here it's ok, breath, take your time.' Loki says, you did feel kind of better knowing he was there but you still didn't want him to know.
'G-go Loki, just go it's ok I've got this it will pass, I don't want you here right now.' You choke out a Loki wipes the tears from your face.
'I'm sorry darling but no.' Loki pulls you into his lap caressing your face with his hand. 'What's 5 things you can see around you?' Loki asks
'Wait what, no please go.' You say trying to get off him but he's too strong. 'Uhh um, our bed, our bedside table, the bookshelf, the tv, you?'

'Good girl. Now what's 4 things you can feel?'
'Y-you, the floor, the wall, my hair in my face.'

'Your doing so good baby, now 3 things you can hear.'
'You again, the clock, the birds.'

'I love you babe, can you please tell me 2 things you smell.'
'You again and um the flowers?'

'I'm so proud of you bubs, and one thing you can taste?'
'The Kit Kat I just ate.'

'Now deep breaths please we will do 7, you can count them on my fingers.' As you slowly took 7 breaths you put one of Lokis fingers down for each. 'I'm so proud of you darling, are you ok?' Loki said while using his magic to grab you some water and a snack.
'It's embarrassing.'
'Of course it's not darling, I will listen no matter what.'

'Don't be mad but I was nervous for tonight, with all these beautiful woman i look like shit, and it's a lot of people I know I will be judged. I can just hear all these voices in my head saying I don't deserve you and I don't deserve to be alive and it's just a lot.'

'That's ok I understand and I would never be mad at you. I'm the one who doesn't deserve you ok. I understand you are nervous about tonight especially considering what happened recently and if you don't want to go I won't ok?'

'No but then I feel bad, this is important to you.'
'Your more important darling. If anyone judges you I they might accidentally get bird shit on them I don't know. Your the most beautiful person I have ever seen everyone will be wishing they were as strong, kind and beautiful as you, if you don't want to go you tell me and we won't.' Loki says stroking your hair.

'I still kind of want to go but can we leave if it gets too much?' You ask.

'Absolutely, you just let me know and then we can have a relaxing movie night, it would be much more exciting than dancing.'