Loki x Yn imagines/ oneshots

Loki comforts you

You and Loki were sitting and talking when you walked up to put your plate away but your sleeve knocked over a glass as you step back and flinched at the sound.
'Omg, omg I am so sorry, I didn't mean to please don't be mad, I'm so sorry what have I don't, I don't know why the fuck I did that. I'm so sorry I'll do better.' You say as tears rush to your eyes.
'Woah woah hey.' Loki said as he reached a hand out towards you and you flinched back.
'Hey, it's ok I'm not mad, it's just a glass of water I can clean it, I would never hurt you ok? Ever. These things happen. You didn't do anything wrong.' Loki says kneeling down to pick up the glass. You step back and then away as tears escape your eyes and you quickly wipe them away. Then you begin to get a flash back. Your parents scream at you after you accidentally knock over the ball, they get into your head as they scream louder and louder. 'WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU DO THAT, WHATS WRONG WITH YOU, ITS JUST MORE WORK DO YOU KNOW HOW ANNOYING THIS IS FOR US, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU.' The screams slowly drown out as you notice Loki is in front of you hugging you in his arms while you have your arms covering your ears, crying into his shoulder. 'It's ok take some deep breaths good girl, your doing so good. Do you think you can name 5 things you can see?' Loki asks.
'You, the table, the bench, the sink, the plant.' You say trying to steady your breathing.
'What are 4 things you can feel?'
'Your hands, the floor, my hair, my jumper.'
'3 things you hear?'
'Your voice, the birds, myself.' You say snuggling up into his chest.
'2 things you smell my love.'
'You and the flowers.' You say pointing the the flowers on the table.
'Good job, one thing you taste?'
'My lunch and my lip balm.' You say sniffling a bit. Loki squeezes you tightly as you begin to cry again, he doesn't let go the whole time as you cry and talk about how hard your child hood was for you and he listens closely running his hands through your hair. Loki helps you stand up and you walk to the couch, he walks to the sink to grab you some water and a snack. He traces circles on your arm with him fingers as you talk for a bit and he tells you about what his childhood was like with Odin. You snuggle of on his chest twisting his hair around your fingers. 'I-I just don't understand why they didn't like me, I don't know what I did wrong. I would look at my friends and their parents and think wow how lucky they are. And my brothers still got better than me but not nearly enough, I always had to look after them because if I didn't, I don't think anyone else will. I kind of wish I had someone too and my grandparents died when I was young. I didn't have anyone to call when I was alone. I kinda wonder what it would of been like.' You say chewing on Lokis hoodie string.
'I understand, but you were so strong, you did so good. With Thor being the favourite it just kind of waited in the shadows, I always tried to be there for him but it was like I was too different people. No matter what I did it wasn't enough, I'd get jealous and those thoughts would take over. The fighting still terrifies me too. I promise I Will never ever be like that with you.'
'Some parents don't deserve their kids, but all deserve parents. If we ever have children, I don't want to be like them, I don't want my kids to be scared to come home to me. I don't want them to ever feel the way I did. It hurts, everything caves in on you, a child can't hold together what their parents can't. Worst part of when the tell you everyone does this, your not doing enough, making you feel like everything you have given will never be good enough.
I gave everything, I gave up my childhood but it still wasn't enough. They still won't love their daughter.' You say.
'That is because they are full of absolute shit. I mean think of Tony and Pepper, they are your real parents and they love you more that life, as do I. Odin is slowly starting to understand but it will never be the same. If we ever have kids I promise I will never be like him, we will give them everything we couldn't get.' You smile as Loki says that knowing that it's ok, younger you would be so proud. Sometimes while you sleep you go over into your old life, like an imaginary friend to your younger self when she struggles in really hard times so she is less alone. Even though you know your not truly there it's a bit comforting.
Loki really helps you with everything, he is someone to talk to and vent to. Someone to trust with anything, you feel so safe with him.