Loki x Yn imagines/ oneshots

You sh and Loki finds out

Loki had gone out grocery shopping and you were home alone. When he left you started to break down, you just couldn't control it you felt so overwhelmed. Knowing Loki wasn't here you grabbed one of your pencil sharpener blades and started cutting your thighs. You sobbed loudly as you did, you felt nothing you just needed to feel something. It felt like this pain was never going to end. You can't live like this, your not even living your just surviving. All the pills and medication it's doing nothing, all the therapists it's doing nothing people are trying to get you help but you just don't want it, you don't want to be saved now. 'Your such a bitch.' 1 cut. 'Your so ugly.' 2 cuts. 'It's all your fault.' 3 cuts. 'You deserve it.' 4 cuts. 'No one loves you.' 5 cuts. 'Why are you so fucking annoying.' 6 cuts. 'Your lying.' 7 cuts. 'I don't give a shit.' 7 cuts. 'She died.' 8 cuts.  'I hate you.' 9 cuts. 'I wish I never had you.' 10 cuts. 'You fucking kill yourself.' 11 cuts. 'You deserve it.' 12 cuts. You were crying harder now it was out of control you just wanted to fucking end it all. You know you have Loki but knowing one day he will be gone too. More cuts and more, deeper and deeper, bleeding onto the floor. You couldn't take it. It's alright you say to yourself, no one will notice your gone, you deserve it. You were cutting deeper now deeper than you had ever gone. You had been self harming for years but you were finally sober. 2 months sober all to fall back to the start. Suddenly you heard the door unlock. 'Yn I'm back, You hear Loki say. 'Where are you I have dinner?' Loki tries to unlock the bathroom door. 'Babe the doors locked can you let me in?' Loki says staring to worry. You were silent you wanted to tell him you would be just a minute. 'Are you ok darling? Loki asks with more urgency in his voice. You can tell me im here for you.' And Loki knows, you had been struggling before but he thought you stopped.
'Sorry baby im just on the toilet listening to music I'll be out in a sec.' Loki looked and saw you headphones on your bedside table.
'Your headphones are out here my love.'
'Sorry im just on the toilet it's really gross im feeling a bit sick.' You reply but Loki can tell your lying.
'I'm coming in.' Loki says as he used his magic to unlock the door.
'No Loki please don't!' But he was already inside. He saw you in the corner of the bathroom with your blade and the blood on the floor. Loki slowly kneels don't beside you and took the blade from your hand. He hugged your tightly kissing your check.
'I'm so sorry I didn't help sonner, please if you ever feel like doing this to yourself again please tell me.'
'Ok, I'm sorry Loki, this is really embarrassing.' You say.
'Hey it's ok, I understand, I'm not mad at you I'm always here for you no matter what.' Loki says. He reaches over and grabs some toilet paper to dry up the blood and gets some spray to clean the cuts. He gently bandaged them up while kissing your head. 'Your doing so good my love. We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to but you always can, no matter the time.' He pulled you into his lap as you hugged him tightly.
'Can we maybe get some snacks and watch a movie? I kind of want to distract myself and I don't really want to be alone.' You say.
'That's ok you won't be.' Loki carried you downstairs so you can pick up the snacks you want as you snuggled up in bed and put a movie on. You rested your head on Lokis chest feeling it rise and fall as you slowly drifted off to sleep in his arms.