Loki x Yn imagines/ oneshots

I have too.

You had been really tempted for a while, you knew you shouldn't but you couldn't take anymore, the blade was in your phone case. It was right there. All you had to do was get it out, but your hurt couldn't, you knew you shouldn't and you knew Loki would be mad but your desperate, you just have to feel that sharp sting and watch the blood drip down your thighs because you couldn't feel anything else, you deserve it.
You take off the phone case and lower down your pants, slowly running the blade a cross your skin, then again, and again more and more cuts, both on each leg . The cuts got harder and faster and suddenly you couldn't stop. The door slowly opened but you weren't paying attention, you didn't notice when Loki walked up behind you.

'Darling?'

You froze and dropped the blade putting up your pants, hopefully he didn't see.

'Pants down. Give me the blade.' Loki says assertively, but try to look away holding the blade close not wanting to give it up, you needed it, you needed to watch yourself bleed, you needed to feel it. You try to avoid eye contact but he uses his fingers to lift your chin.
'Blade please baby.' He says softer this time seeing how panicked you are getting.
You slowly hand him the blade and hug into his chest. 'It's ok, im not mad, your not in trouble ok?' He whispers. 'Can you please let me see and I'll get you all fixed up. It's ok, sometimes me can't control the urge. Your doing really good, keep breathing it's not your fault.'

You slowly pull down your pants so he can see the cuts. He takes you over to the bathroom and gets a damp towel to clean up your legs. He  puts some cream on them and wraps your thighs up. 'You won't need stitches or anything so that's good. I know it's hard but you can talk to me, please try to talk to me. I know it's hard, but your going to be ok. I'm here.' He whispers as you sit down in his lap on the bathroom floor. He pulls you close to his chest and the sobs you were holding in slowly come.

'I'm really sorry I tried.' You softly say.

'It's ok, you don't get to be sorry. I know you tried and I'm really proud of you, thanks for letting me help you. What do you want ro do yo maybe distract yourself?' Loki calmly says so as not to overwhelm you.

'Just hugs and a movie, and then sleep.' You reply.

'Ok.' Loki answers, picking you up and taking you over to the bed. He lays you down on his chest rubbing your back as he turns on the movie. You are extremely drained and it doesn't take you long to fall off to sleep. Loki makes sure you are in a deep sleep before falling to sleep himself.

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