When will you realise (byler)

Chapter 19

(Mikes POV)

"Will?" I say as i start to wake up hoping for a response.

"Mmmm."

Oh thank god she's alive i was so scared that he was in a coma or something like that like Max.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine i was just really tired."

"Do you think you would be able to come to school today?"

"Yeah i wouldn't want to miss your first day, now would I?"

I can feel myself slowly turning red luckily Will isn't watching me he still has his face in his pillow.

"Why are you on the floor?" He says turning his head over to me thankfully my face went back to normal fast.

"Well i thought it would be best to give some shape."

"Okay that's fine."

"I actually wanted to talk to you about something Will."

"Yeah what is it?" He says sitting up and rubbing his eyes.

"Ummmm well it was about what you told me before you went away, you know that you well like me."

I can see him get visibly uncomfortable at the question because he tenses up and turns red.

"W-what did you want to know?" He says stumbling over his words.

Wait what did i want to know? I guess i just wanted him to confirm it but he already did last night maybe i should just tell him the truth i mean it has been quite some time now but what if i don't actually like him like that what if it's normal to want to spend every minute with him? It probably is.

"Well i don't really know it's more i want to know how you like me?"

"Well how did you like El?"

"That's the thing i don't know if i actually did or if it was just everyone telling me that i should like her."

"What do you mean?" Will asks.

"Well it's hard to explain Lucas said that every time he got to see Max he would be happy but after seeing El i just got kind of sick of her."

"Well that might be normal you did spend every day with her."

"But that's the problem i didn't really want to but i do want to spend every day with you, i want to spend all my time with you Will."

God i can't believe I actually did it this time god holy fuck my heart is beating so fast right now it feels like it's going to just pop out of my chest at any given moment.

"Well that might be normal."

"Well what if it's not normal?"

"What do you mean Mike?"

"Well it's kind of hard to explain i mean but what if i don't like girls?"

"Well how would you find out?"

"I don't know."

Is he asking me to kiss him or something like that without asking me? Because it sounds that way right now.

"Well even if you don't like girls or if you do we will still be friends and i can always bury my feelings deep inside me." Will says.

"But that doesn't sound very healthy Will."

"Well i would rather do that than lose a friend like you."

Well that's nice i guess maybe going a bit too far but okay.

"Well I mean- well. Actually i have no idea where this is going so should we just get ready for school?"

"Yeah sure sounds good."

"How's this Will." I say gesturing to my clothes, a hellfire shirt and jeans.

"Well I'm not too sure about the shirt but the jeans are okay."

"Well what else should i wear?"

"Here let me see what we are working with." He says as he sits down next to my bag and starts pulling out clothes one by one.

"Here this one will work." He says pulling out a plain blue t-shirt and my blue and grey long sleeved shirt.

"Okay." I say.

"Do you wanna  go to the bathroom and change or something?"

"Nah i's fine you just turn around or something."

"Okay." Will says as he turns around to look out the window.

God he's so cute i wish i could just go up to him and hug him and never let go until he pleads with me to let go of his because he can't breathe.

I finish getting changed resisting the urge to go up to Will and just squeeze him until he pops.

"How's this?" I say.

"Yup much better because with the hellfire shirt it looked like you were in a cult."

"yeah that's what everyone thought in Hawkins too."

"Oh, I'm sorry."

"Nah it's fine.Do you have a dnd club?"

"I don't think so."

"What do you mean you don't know."

"Well i guess i never really looked."

"But you love dnd."

"Well I doubt i even know how to play last time i played was when we all played together like 2 years ago."

But he loves that game he would always try to get us to play and now he hasn't played in 2 years! Was it my fault? Last time he tried to get us to play we had a fight so what if that ruined the entire idea for him?

"So you haven't played in that long?"

"Well yeah you guys never wanted to play anymore because you were busy solving 'the great mystery of the female species' so after the fight i guess i just gave up. I didn't want to wreck the great memories i already had of the game."

So i was right this is all my fault god I'm such a bad friend, and here i was giving myself credit for being a good one just because Will said i was.

I walk up to Will and wrap my arms around him and just keep repeating "I'm sorry Will, I'm so sorry." 

"It's fine Mike I needed to grow up anyway."

"No Will you shouldn't change just because you think that's what what we wanted."

"Well it's fine I've found other things i can do i joined an art club at school there's only 3 of us but it's fine."

How do I even make up for this i practically killed an entire part of my best friend, I guess that could work but it might be hard to convince Dustin and Lucas.

"Do you still like dnd?"

"I think so but i couldn't be so sure since i haven't played in a while."

Well I could work with that it would've been better to have a yes or no but this will do.

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