Let Go (GXG, MD/LG) A Vanilla Introduction to Submission

21. Mommy's Little Girl

Kristen's POV

"I'm going to try calling myself mommy around you, if you feel uncomfortable or you don't like something tell me or safe word, okay baby? I'm going to be using and grabbing some of my little things for you to play with. If you truly don't want to, I want you to safe word. But I would love for you to trust me and see how you feel. I want to see if I can help you get into little space and feel comfortable being in it. I've seen you little before I know it's in you and it's just you and me here. I want you to start feeling safe with me, okay baby?"

    Kristen nods

    Nicole smiles at her "I know you're just a little baby but can you use your big girl words to tell me you understand?"

    Kristen's face flames in embarrassment and she looks down at the floor "Yes I understand, Mistress."

    Nicole makes a little gasping noise but Kristen can't look up at her domme. "What a good little baby, now let's go to the kitchen." without waiting for Kristen to answer she stands up with Kristen still in her arms walks off the bed and back towards the kitchen. Kristen yelps out in surprise but all it does is make Nicole laugh.

    "Sometimes my baby, you got to jump off the deep end." Nicole continues chuckling and kisses her temple.

    Kristen had just agreed to exposure therapy, oh god.

    But still Nicole treated her so tenderly and with so much care that she didn't really mind. Nicole softly puts Kristen on the floor of the kitchen and tells her very sweetly to wait there, and she does, wanting to be obedient for her mistress. She watches as pulls out a pink sippy cup, a blue bottle, and one Clifford The Big Red Dog sippy cup! The Clifford one has a yellow background with Clifford smiling and Emily Elizabeth on his back! It was so cool! Kristen had never seen a cup with Clifford on it.

    Nicole notices Kristen watching and a smirk comes over her face, like she knew this would happen when she saw it. She walks back to where she left Kristen on the floor all three cups in hand. She stays standing forcing Kris to look up at her, again enforcing that Kristen was small.

    "You're so curious about little space and little things but still you don't fully commit... but I see the way you're staring at this sippy cup, you want to give in."

    Kristen... Kristen did want to give in but she didn't want to be the one to say it. She wanted this deep in her bones; she knew it, but still couldn't speak. Kristen had everything in life tell her she was to be big, be an adult all the time, and any other feelings shouldn't be there if they are they need to be repressed.

    "Ah, ah, ah." Nicole sighs "I see that brain is trying to think too hard again. What did I tell you about thinking? It hurts your little baby head, there's no need to think when mommy's here. Maybe every time you need a punishment I'll make you drink your juice out of a bottle and sit on my mommy's lap... remind you what a cute little baby you are... or... should I make that your reward? For being big all week when I'm not there to take care of my princess?"

    Kristen whines, she wanted to jump up and down and agree with her domme because Kristen would enjoy that. She would take it any way she could; either as a punishment or a reward, she wanted to be put in that place. There was that mix of doing something 'wrong', the humiliating part of doing something so childish but then Nicole was there smiling at her so warmly that it didn't feel wrong at all.

Nicole stares into her sub's eyes as if trying to figure out what she's feeling but still Kristen couldn't speak.

"Color." Nicole demanded. Her voice wasn't harsh but it caused Kristen to flinch.

"Green." Kristen said quickly and clearly, she takes a breath and then whispers so softly "Please help me let go" 

There's a moment it's so quick that Kristen almost doesn't notice it; Nicole's face resets, it leaves that mommy domme place and is just a concerned lover. There's a softness there that Kristen has never seen from Nicole before. Almost as if a layer of protection disappeared off Nicole's face.

"Oh Darling," Nicole whispers back "When was the last time someone treated you gently?"

Kristen still doesn't know how to answer her domme.

Nicole takes a breath and is back in domme mode "You know, I have your favorite juice in the fridge, I think our sippy sessions will be a reward for my littlest baby."

Kristen bites her lip,as she watches Nicole, bold in front of her looking down at her with a smile on her face. Excitement flooded through her, Kristen knew she wasn't in control here; this was happening and now she felt set free.

"Stay sitting and looking down at the floor until I get back." Nicole said turning and heading to the kitchen before checking to see if Kristen was doing as she commanded but Kristen was an excited good girl she wouldn't disappoint her.

It didn't take long for Nicole to reach the fridge, open and close it, Kristen could hear that much and when she walked back to her.

"Rise Princess,"

Kristen does but she doesn't lift her head so she can look her domme in the eye, instead she waits for the direction.

"Look at me baby, come here and lay across me, your face facing me."

Kristen nods and see's Nicole walking towards the sofa and sitting down comfortably, Kristen follows and when she lays close to Nicole looking up into her eyes there's a look of fear and anticipation on her face. They had been close all day but this moment felt charged with anticipation. The thought of actually nursing from Nicole's body popped into Kristen's head and a new desire ran through her body but she shook it off for now, this was about turning her brain off. Nicole held Kristen like a little baby and she felt it, it felt real.

Kristen leans in as close as she can so she can lean her head on her breast while Nicole lifts her hand raising the Clifford sippy cup.

"Open your mouth Princess,"

Kristen hesitates looking from Nicole to the bottle, her mouth stays shut.

"Little babies like you shouldn't have to worry, all these confusing thoughts in your head telling you, you can't play with me like this. But mommy's here to tell you this is okay. This is good, this will make mommy's baby very very happy. I'm gonna make mommy's little girl happy, look at me, don't look at the sippy."

Kristen's eyes shifted back to Nicole

"Mommy's got you," her domme says soothingly, she waits until Kristen's breathing evened a little more before slowly bringing the bottle down between Kristen's lips.

Kristen accepts the bottle into her mouth and slowly begins to suck.

Nicole gasps in admiration "What a good girl, thank you for believing in mommy and that mommy knows best for her little girl. Just let mommy take care of you, you can be as brainless as you want. Mommy is here to make the big girl decisions for you."

Kristen feels so soothed, a mix from Nicole's honey like voice and the consistent sucking to get the cran-mango juice from her sippy cup. Something about this being exactly what Kristen needed makes one more tear roll down her face. Nicole sees and holds Kristen tighter.

"You are safe to be who you are here, my love."

Even as Kristen finishes her juice she doesn't leave her mommy's arms, instead she falls asleep feeling safe and warm.