The Ultimate Senior Year Plan {lashton/malum}#Wattys2016

~Calum~

I always hated the attention. I didn't want anyone to know about my past but I must have been crazy to think I could hide this secret. I didn't want to talk anymore. I was quiet for the rest of the night. I walked into the kitchen where Michael was staring at me. "You know we really don't care about your cutting problem Calum. It doesn't change who you are" Michael patted my shoulder. "And plus we all would have found out eventually" Michael walked out of the kitchen and I sighed. Now it was Sunday and I was at home lying in my bed checking my phone. I just rolled my eyes. My mother opened my door. "Go away can you give me some privacy" I told her. I was clearly busy and she was disturbing me. "Calum, we need to talk about what I found on your laptop" my mom told me. "Why are you looking at my laptop" I asked her while not even looking up from my phone. "You really shouldn't be looking at gay porn" my mother stated to me. "Calum I'm worried about you going to hell with this phase" my mom stated to me and I rolled my eyes while scratching my already cuts on my arms. "Can you leave" I calmly told her. "All I'm saying is that being gay is a sin" my mom finally walked out of my room. I locked the door after she left and I slid down the door and I felt the tears fell down onto my cheeks. I rushed to my cutting draw and I took out a razor. My phone rang and I answered it without looking at the caller ID. I sniffed out loud. "Calum you okay" Mikey asked me and I wiped my nose. I put the razors down. "Cal you there" Mikey asked me. "Yeah I'm there" I responded to him. "You've been crying, what's wrong" Mikey asked me. "I'm fine just issues with my mom" I told him honestly. Talking to Mikey calmed me down and I put back the razors. "Well I hope everything works itself" Mikey stated to me. "Thank you Mikey" I told him. "For what" Mikey responded to me. "For stopping me from cutting myself along with calming me down" I told him honestly. I feel like I could be used to having Ashton, Luke, and Mikey as my friends. "Oh and Calum if you need a place to get away you can always come to mine or heck even Luke" Mikey told me. "Are you sure about Luke" I asked him. "Luke is worried about you Calum. All my years growing up in the same school as Ashton and Luke, I can tell you that they both are really caring and just to let you know I don't do this for everybody" Mikey rambled to me and I felt myself smiling a bit and I looked in the mirror. "Thanks, I should go dinner is ready" I said bye to Mikey and I hung up the phone. I held onto my phone and walked downstairs to see my mom was praying. "Mom" I called for her. "Can't you see I'm busy" my mom replied to me. I just stood in front of her and finally she was done praying. "I'm gay mom and that's final. It's not a phase okay" I crossed my arms and for the first time my mom glared at me. What happened next shocked me, she slapped me across the face. I grabbed my cheek in shock. "I will not have a fag for a son" mom shouted at me and I ran to my room and locked the door. I pulled my knees into my chest. I dialed Mikey's number again and again but he didn't pick up. I felt a panic attack coming up. I looked at my phone and I thought of Ashton and Luke. I dialed Luke's number. He picked up, he was whispering. "Luke" I said to him. "Cal what's up" Luke questioned me and I sighed. "My mom" I told him. "Are you okay Cal it sounds like you having a panic attack" Luke mumbled to me and I sighed. "Yeah I feel like I can't breath" I confessed to him. "Is your mom there" Ashton suddenly got on the phone. "No I think she just left" I told him. "Okay then we'll be there" Ashton hung up the phone. My knees was curled into me. I unlocked the door. It had to be a good 10 minutes when the doorbell rang. I ran to the door and I saw Michael, Ashton and Luke basically the whole gang. They all walked into my house. I felt self conscious about my home. Everything wasn't okay. I felt my head feel dizzy and fell unto the floor which Luke grabbed my hands. "Shh it's okay Calum just breath with me" Luke whispered to me and I tried but the tears fell down. Eventually I felt my eyes close right there in the entry of my house on Luke Hemmings