The Ultimate Senior Year Plan {lashton/malum}#Wattys2016

~Mike~

I watched as Lashton walked into Luke's room. I stood there in Cal's room just pacing back and forth. Cal gave me a small smile and he handed me a letter. It was addressed to Cal and it was from a university in New York. I stared at him and he urged me to open it. "Cal" i greeted him and Cal kept pacing back and forth and in that instant I saw bandages wrapped around his wrists. "Cal, what happened" I asked him and Cal sat down on the bed looking at his feet. I sat down on his bed next to him. "I had a relapse after Luke snapped at me" Cal informed me and I handed back his letter. Cal sighed and opened it. I saw his face went from a frown to a huge smile on his face. He hugged me tight and I hugged him back swinging him around. "I got in. I can't believe it" Cal smile was so huge and I couldn't help but smile back at him. "So this prom thing is a big deal to you huh" I pushed his shoulders back. Cal nodded and I sighed. "If you don't want to go, we don't have to" Cal suggested to me. "No, we should go" I told Cal and Cal just jumped on me pushing me down on the bed kissing my face all over. I kissed him back and I could feel his smile coming on his lips. "Now excuse me" I pushed Cal away and Cal just pouted at me. "So it's official, we going to prom together" Cal jumped up and down on his bed and I shook my head no. "I have to ask you properly" I told him and Cal just glared at me. "Oh come on Cal, it's your prom don't you want to be asked spectacularly" I stated to him and Cal's glare went down into a small smile and nodded. I kissed his head and I looked over at Cal and I told him to wait there. I walked out of Cal's room and into the hall. I saw Ash standing out there and he looked stressed out. "Luke is sick with an eating disorder and I don't know what to do" Ash told me and I raised one eyebrow. "He haven't been eating Mike and I don't know what to do" Ash continued to ramble to me and I sighed while stopping him from pacing back and forth. "I can try to talk to him Ash. I went through an eating disorder for goodness sake" I stated to him and Ash took breath and I just smiled at him. I was about to enter Luke's room but stopped. "Can you help Cal, Ash he relapsed so bad Ash" I asked him and Ash just nodded before rushing to Cal's room. I knocked on Luke's door and I walked into his room. I took a chair and sat it in front of Luke. "Ash, he's worried about you" I got to the point and Luke sighed. "He told me you have trouble eating" I continued to talk to Luke. "What made you have an eating disorder and when did you first did it" Luke asked me and I shook my head. I knew this was coming, there was no way to avoid this conversation whether I wanted to or not. It could help Luke if I opened up to me a little bit more. "it all started in middle school" I started the story and I could see that Luke was getting more comfortable on his bed. (Italicized is flashback) I always felt self-conscious about my weight, looks, name anything I was insecure.  It was so bad that I would avoid mirrors or I would cover the mirrors that were in my room because all I could see in my mirror was flaws. I used to write all over my mirrors with red dry erase markers listing all of my flaws. It was seventh grade, the start of it, I came back to school with big round glasses along with braces and I was overweight beyond anything. Ryan's brother, Marcel was my only friend at the time. Remember Luke, me and Ryan wasn't the best of friends but we were somewhat decent towards one another until that year. I was at my locker and Marcel was hanging out at my locker. I opened it and I heard my locker closed shut and I turned around and there stood Ryan with the rest of the football team. "Hey Ryan" I greeted him while stuttering a little bit at him. "Have you looked at yourself in the mirror recently probably not because you probably will crack the mirror or any reflective surface" Ryan commented while high-fiving everybody on the football team making me feel like complete shit. "Hey, don't listen to my brother. There is nothing wrong with you"  Marcel tried to tell me. "Go away Marcel" I shouted at him and Marcel sighed and walked away while shaking his head at me. For the rest of the day I hid in the bathroom not making a sound except sobbing. I put my knees up to my chest and after school was finally over, I rushed home and I ran all the way to my house. I opened the door and there stood my parents arguing non-stop and I ran to my room and I locked the door. I threw everything around in my room even causing to break the mirror and I fell onto the floor sobbing my eyes out. I needed to lose weight and I was going to do so Ryan and everybody would leave me the fuck alone. I'll start out with exercising. My parents would be so proud of me wanting to lose weight since they kept telling me I needed to lose weight because I was bringing shame to the family. "And that's how I started with an eating disorder" I shrugged my shoulders acting like it was no big deal. "But you better, you actually eat" Luke commented to me and I smiled at him. "Yeah I do but it's difficult. Sometimes I still see that fatass everytime I looked in the mirror but Luke it will get easier if you get help for it. Rehab or therapy is not a death sentence." I sat next to Luke on the bed and Luke just sighed and shook his head no. "I can't the press would have a field day" Luke mumbled and I realized luke was so far in that regardless of what I say to him won't change anything and that's a scary thought because Luke could die, Ash could lose the love of his life and me I could a lose one of my best friends.