Finding Mr Wrong [COMPLETE!!!]Soon to be published under LIB

Chapter 40 part 1

Chapter 40

AN.. Subject for editing....

Tanya

After the incident with Andrew, nagpahanap na ako ng unit sa ibang condo. I don’t want to risk another confrontation with him… ang hindi ko maintindihan ay kung bakit hindi ko maalis sa isip ko ang nangyari. I felt Andrew’s ache, the pain in his voice that tells how much he had suffered that I really feel guilty for what I’ve done… thought at that moment it seems like it was the most rational thing to do,, but after that confrontation, I felt otherwise. And I can’t help but feel guilty about it. And what about that last statement? Does it mean goodbye? Though I bade goodbye a long time ago… but it hurts so much kung ikaw pala ang sinasabihan ng ganon… Ganito ba ang naramdaman ni Andrew noong umalis ako? Baka mas masakit pa dahil hindi man lang ako nagpaalam ng harapan. Hindi ko man lang sya pinagbigyan para pagusapan namin ng maayos ang sitwasyon. But what am I to do back then? Sinunod ko lang din naman ang gusto ng mommy nya… AAAYYYYY EEWWWAAANNNN!!!! Sumasakit na ang ulo ko! Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko!  

“You’re spacing out again… “ Angelie interrupted my thoughts.. “ You have to concentrate..”

“I know, I know.. sorry… “

We are now at the dressing room preparing for another set.

She just smiled at me and sat beside me with the look of concern in her eyes.

“I know you have problems before but I’ve never seen you so downcast. I know you can fake it in front of the camera but it really breaks my heart to see you like that…”

I sighed…

“Angie, what am I suppose to do?” I said feeling gloomy.

“ you know very well what you have to do but you are holding back… look I’m sorry for being blunt like this… but you know, your stubbornness is making you depressed… you have to figure things out and fast. You don’t have much time you know.”

How much time do I have left? Dalawang linggo na ang nakalipas nung nakausap ko si Andrew… and since then wala na akong balita sa kanya, kahit si Charlie parang hindi na rin ako kinukulit tungkol sa kanya… so I guess, it’s my move then? Kung hahayaan ko na lang syang mapakasal sa iba, dadating ba ang oras na makakalimutan namin ang bawat isa? Or will it leave us both being lonely and heartbroken for the rest of our lives, always thinking, what could have been?

Bakit ba ang mundo ay punong puno ng pagsubok? Bakit ba walang madaling sagot sa mga katanungan? Haaaay!

“I need a vacation..”

“And what? Para matakasan mo naman ang mga problema mo?”

Silence…

“Ang dami ng nagsasabi sa yo na harapin mo ang problema mo… pero hindi mo pa rin magawa kaya ayan, you’re all desperate and all that… “

“O sige na…. “

I have to divert her… ayoko ng pagusapan to…

“by the way.. So how’s the condo hunting ?”

“Wala pa rin. Yung mga natatanong ko ang lalayo sa Makati, yung iba naman, hindi papasa sa standards mo.”

“hindi naman ako meselan.”

“Oo nga pero yung mga available na units e mas malaki pa ang cr nila Charlie… baka mga damit mo lang ang magkasya don.”

“Hahahaha! Ano ka ba.. hindi naman super dami ng mga damit ko! “