The Only Girl In Section Eleven

Chapter 48

Zyrill's POV

It's been a month since that day happen. Jhai don't show herself anymore and I fucking miss her when I know it's my fault. Sobrang akong nagsisi. The Section Eleven stay the same, makukulit na ulit. No one even try to open the conversation. Hanggang ngayon gulong gulo ako kung sino ba talaga siya. Para siyang missing puzzle ng buhay ko at masasagot lang ang lahat ng katanungan sa utak ko kung magpapakita siya sa harapan ko.

Sino ka ba talaga?

On the other hand, Klea is still annoying. Hindi naman siya pinapansin ng Section Eleven. She can't replace Jhai. She already left us and Jhai is there for us. She can'y just comeback and act like nothing happened. Hindi niya na mababawi pa lahat ng dinulot niyang sakit sa amin. But, I do still care about her pero hindi na katulad ng dati.

"Zyrill, I love you." Klea said at she try to kiss me. Umiwas ako sa halik niya at tinulak siya palayo. Nakita ko ang luha aa mga mata niya but I don't care. She's not Jhai. She's not my Jhai.

"I don't love you. Stay away from me, bitch." I don't care if I hurt her. Jhai is the only person that matters to me. Jhai is the only person who is allowed to kiss me, not her. Not Klea. Not anyone. It's only Jhairiella.

Dumiretso na ako sa room at nakitang nakatingin sila mula sa bintana. Tsk. Those bastards. Nagsisi na rin sila sa mga ginawa nila at hanggang ngayon alam ko na they are hoping Jhai would show up. Na babalik pa ito para makahingi kami ng tawad pero hindi na nangyari 'yon.

Days passed, wala na talaga. We continue to live like she doesn't exist and everyone in the school start acting weird. Pinag uusapan kami well hindi naman na bago but this time ay nagtataka sila kung bakit wala silang nakikita na Jhai.

"Lahat talaga ng napupunta sa section nila, umaalis 'no?"

"Yes, totoo nga ang chismis. They are hard to deal with. Walang nagtatagal kasi nga ugaling basura."

Siguro nga. We are hard to deal with but Jhai can take it. She can deal with us. As long as it's Jhai who is dealing with us, we are fine. She's the only exception. Siya lang nakakita ng side ng Section Eleven na hindi nila pinapakita sa iba. I guess, we are really soft when it comes to her.

She's easy to love. Hindi nakakapagtaka na nagustuhan siya ni Andrei at hindi na rin ako magtataka kung aamin pa yung iba na nagustuhan nila ito. She is close with everyone, easy to be with and you can be yourself when you are with her because she won't judge you and she will comfort you. She is willing to listen and give advice if you are having a hard time. Nandyaan siya palagi and that's one of the reason why we love her.

I remember when Andrei talked to me and saying she loves her. That night, I know I can't give what he wants.

"I love her." Andrei said. Hawak ang wine.

"Who?" I know what he is talking about. It's Jhai. Alam ko na gusto niya ito dahil hindi naman siya ganon dati. I'm just acting dumb.

"You know what I'm talking about, Zy." He said at stared at me. I stared at him blankly. Not my Jhai, Drei.

"I want to pursue her. I really love her. Siya lang ang babae na nagpatino sa akin ng ganito. Kapag nandyaan siya, gusto ko siya protektahan. Gusto ko palagi ako malapit sakaniya. When I'm with her, everything feels like okay. World is kinder when I'm with her. I really love Jhai."

"So? Why are you telling this to me? Tell this to her, Andrei." Sabi ko sakaniya at ininom ang beer na hawak ko. Tinitigan lang ako nito at tsaka tumawa.

"You are stopping yourself from loving her but you just can't. I know you, Zyrill. Kilala ko na ang ikot ng isip at bituka mo simula pa noon. Alam ko na kapag may gusto kang isang bagay o tao hindi mo basta ibibigay. You are hard to deal with... I know you love her. So, why are you stopping yourself?" He said. I just stared at him 'cause I know part of me saying he is right.