Kaneki Ken x Reader- The Relentless Battle

A shattered mind

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One evening you were driving along, it felt so good to be driving. It felt so free, for the past 19 years you never knew what freedom felt like. So tonight, as you drove to the liquor store again to get some candy you got to thinking.

"I see the appeal of killing yourself in a car accident. Of course, I would only take myself out, I would never dream of killing someone else due to my own selfish reasons. On the way home..." you said to yourself as you wiped tears away.

You looked at yourself in the mirror as you parked. Your eyes looked blank, and you had dark circles surrounding them. "Oh well this is as good as it gets"

You entered the store and saw one other person in there besides the cashier.

"Hmm I wonder how happy that cashier is with his life. I wish I could switch lives with him..." you thought.

You walked to the candy isle and saw the other guy standing there looking at the candy as well. "Wow he's handsome, have I seen him before?...I wonder how happy he is..."

You searched for your favorite candy; but it wasn't in its usual spot.

The guy looked over at you,

"Wow, she's here again, she is so beautiful, but her eyes...she looks so sad...I wonder"

You walked off annoyed. The guy heard your voice asking the cashier a question.

"Excuse me sir, where are the sour jellies I can't find them anywhere"

"They should be there miss"

"Oh, then maybe you are all out, damn ok have a goodnight"

"Wait!" The guy from the aisle shouted.

You turned to see him jogging towards you.

"Here ya go" he said handing you a pack of sour jellies. You looked up at him confused.

"Sorry I took the last ones; they are my favorite too"

"A-are you sure?" As you said this a glimmer of light flickered on your eyes and he saw this.

"I'm sure. Also, here sir please ring this up along with her candy."

"Oh no please I can pay myse..."

"No, no I insist, please"

"O-ok, thank you"

After paying the stranger offered to walk you out to your car. You were nervous going with the man you did not know, but then you thought,

"What's the worst this guy could do to me anyways? Kill me? Ha that would be doing exactly what I want anyways."

"I appreciate your kindness, it's rare."

"Hmm, maybe if I ask her, I'll see if she remembers me at all"

"I'm glad I could show you kindness still exist, you look familiar, have we met before by chance?"

"He seems like such a nice person...shit, have I met this man before? He doesn't' look familiar at all though..." You thought.

"Mmm I don't think so, s-should I know you?" You asked worried, he could hear the tenseness in your voice.

"N-no...You just looked familiar is all, it's nice to officially meet you miss, my names Kaneki, and yours?"

"Nice to meet you too, my names Y/N"

"Well drive safe Y/N, I hope we meet again"

"We never will, todays the end for me..." you thought.

"Yeah I hope so too" you said as you pretended to smile again.

You got into your car and sped off into the night. You drove a few miles while you munched on your candy. All the windows were down, and you were blasting your favorite song. You reached a long narrow road and stayed there with your foot on the break sitting idle.

You began to sob quietly to yourself as you stuffed the candy into your mouth. "I'm ready..." you said to yourself.

You revved your engine and cranked up the music. When your foot hit the gas pedal it started to rain.

"This is a perfect time for rain" you said to yourself.

...40...60...75...90...110...120...

Your heart was beating so fast, you had never gone this fast before. You felt so free, but still so empty.

"Why do I still feel so empty? Why...why!!!" You yelled to yourself.

"Was this worth it? I can't go back now" you said to yourself as you began to skid across the lanes.

"This is it! I'll finally be happy" you said as you flew into the railing that's supposed to keep cars on the road.

You tumbled down, your car turned over four times before it finally came to a stop.

The car stayed lying on the side you were on. After a few minutes you woke up again and as you looked in your rear-view mirror you could see a huge fire starting. It was not raining enough to put the fire out when it was tiny, and now that it has started to pour it was too late that tiny fire had grown into a roaring flame, and it was inching its way towards the front seats. You squirmed around trying to see if you could get free, you looked down to see the rail that you crashed through was firmly impaled into your upper right thigh keeping you pinned to your seat.

"Fuck, I'm going to be burned alive...Ha of course this would happen to me." You said to yourself.

You watched as the flames grew and grew; thoughts rushed through your head.

You laid there thinking to yourself....

"I wonder what life could have been like if I was born someone else, anyone else... Was it my fault? Could I have done more? It doesn't hurt as much as I thought it would... Ugh this song is so stupid, I can't believe this is the song that is playing while I die... Wow I can't believe it I'm...I'm really dying..." you thought to yourself as you turned your head to the side, glass scratched at your face as you did.

"Fuck that's a lot of blood, damn no going back now, even if I wanted too there's no one around. I'm going to die all alone. Just...just like they said I would." Tears began to fill your eyes; everything was blurry now.

"I'm still not happy..." you whispered to yourself.

Suddenly a glimpse of white appeared in your peripheral vision, you tried as quickly as you could to brush the tears from your eyes.

"Is this really happening?" you said aloud.

"Y/N! Y/N! Do you want to live?" the person asked.

You were dazed now, "How does he know my name? Who is he an angel?...devil?...Do I want to live?" you asked yourself. By now you had lost a lot of blood, and the smoke had filled your lungs to the point where you could no longer speak.

"If you can't speak and you want to live, grab onto me...grab onto life!" the person yelled out.

You slowly lifted your hand and reached out to grab a hold of him, your fingertips began to grip at his sleeve. With the voice you had left you faintly said, "Live" before you passed out.