robbers// joshler

it's what you wanted [twenty six]

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"how are you feeling today?"

"better," i smile.

"good good."

"i've been looking up ways to perfect our plan."

"our hypothetical plan?"

"well.. i thought we were really gonna do it?"

"yes, love, i promised you already, i was just joking."

"okay."

"so what have you found out?"

"all the stuff i told you before basically. i'm just trying to figure out how not to get caught."

"have you asked ashley?"

"i don't really know if i want to bring her into this."

"she's the getaway driver, remember?"

"but i'm unsure if that's true. i don't want to take ender from her. they tried so hard for a kid. and i don't want to make ender an orphan, vise versa, make alev a widower."

"that's true. it's a lot to think about, babe."

"it's a lot of pressure."

he lays his head on my lap. his hair is all fluffy and his ears are bright.

like he is the human embodiment of starlight. the stars and the sun and the moon are all inside of him. 

he is my whole world.

"you're letting this get to you too. here just call her."

he hands me my phone.

"how do i know what i'm doing is right?"

"robbing a record store isn't right. but we can't do this alone."

"this is selfish."

"it's what you wanted, honey."

i pick up the phone and dial.

a/n: so i'm not smart 

and i hurt myself yesterday 

and i cut my hand all up 

and my knee 

and i can barely walk or use my hand 

and just to type this out hurts a whole lot

okay goodnight

bye