"I never had that fatherly affection, from a man figure. Sometimes I feel like I will never be able to settle for one single person, because I am difficult and I don't see myself with only one for eternity, no matter how short or long that might be. But from every guy I meet and I make friends with, I try to get as much affection as I can, at a friend level, because it's comforting. The warmth, the feeling of security and protection that you only get from them. I like that
And other times I am afraid that I am going to find somebody whom I will love so much, that I would grip onto them as tight as I can and never be able to let go. I would hang on too much for too long and not realise that what I am holding onto is just a pile of false hope and a man who saw me as just another Friday night special"
