Abel Garcia
Isla is getting better and better day by day and selfishly I would say it's part of me and the other part is how strong she actually is, when she told me she finally wants to go to therapy I was so proud of her for finally deciding to heal, other people wouldn't be able to deal what she dealt with her whole life and that's what makes me love her even more, if that's possible. She has my heart, it's already full of her.
Minne knows about the FBI and the drug dealing, she told me Isla has decided to go to rehabilitation and I'm glad because I never wanted to report her although I have her files that doesn't mean I will send them in, I have got plenty of other files but God I wish she could stop with those drugs already. I really want to tell her everything but based on what she went through lately, I really don't want to throw this bomb on her, I will tell her after she begins with therapy and rehabilitation, after I sense her getting better.
It's hard to hide it from her, I feel the guilt heaving my chest everyday and especially when she shows me how much she trusts me, that makes me want to blurt out the words and beg for forgiveness.
"Yes, boss?" I answer the phone as soon as I make sure Isla is nowhere to be seen.
"How is it going Garcia? Got anything new?"
"Yeah, I already got plenty of files on the drug dealers-"
"Proof Abel, we need proof also"
"I was going to mention that I also have the proof if you would have let me talk for once" He is annoying me so fucking much because it's like he is doing all this on purpose, like he knows I don't want to do this to her even though he knows nothing about my life.
"Okay good, the time is coming tick, tick, tick Abel. Don't waste it"
Fucking asshole. It's like he already wants to make me feel worse.
"Is everything okay?" Isla's voice calls behind me startling the shit out of me.
"Si"
"Can't lie to me Abel. You look stressed"
Why the fuck does she know me so well?
"No it's okay just thinking about the job back home and all the company stuff to deal with"
"You never told me what other job you do by the way"
"Nothing important" She doesn't buy it but she doesn't push further. Ever since this happend to her she has been so calm, she's not even pushing me to tell her anything, unless she's having a nightmare, she has been having plenty of those and I hate them so much because she doesn't deserve any of this and I wish I could take her pain, take her demons, take her darkness. I gladly would take it all just so I can see the genuine smile on her face and her sunshine energy come back, haven't seen it in a while and I fucking miss it.
"You got this Abel, we both know you do, just have faith in yourself okay?"
"Okay" I smile at her. Please don't hate me.
If she leaves me again, I wont survive it. I just wont be able to survive it, not when I finally got her back, not when we finally got our shit together, not when she's going through hell.
