non-mutual ignorance

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we thought mutually was better than any other breakup, but we were too toxic to even try to do that.
our memories are replaying in my mind,
like home movies.
i can no longer read you,
but you're still my favourite poem.
the summer next to my winter heart was unapologetically freezing.
thought to be global warming-
was a fire filled heart, of genuine hatred for me.
my motivation to get out of bed is back, something i didn't even have
when we were together.
so that's exactly what i did,
and from you-
i received not even a glance,
not a single word.
not a single reply when i said something to you,
which took enough courage to even do.
but to receive pure ignorance,
was something i'd never expect from you.
you used to reassure me
that i wasn't just an annoyance
to those around me,
but you're now the only reason why i think that.
not considered mutual at all,
you're the reason why i can't get out of bed,

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