peaceful chaos

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i constantly crave chaos.
I've grown up in a lot of chaotic situations, that it's now the "normal" for me-
I'm always in survival mode.
So when I have peace and good things around me, I usually end up ruining it all.
all because I'm just not used to it and it feels like a set up situation.
i need to roll the dice.
and if i am going to try,
i will be going all the way.
otherwise not trying at all.
chaos is too comfortable,
yet peace is too rare.

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