my poetry - kelsey loch

your road trip alone

you're worth more than a 10 dollar show but i mentioned the time during a deep conversation and you took it to heart.
i did something out of your comfort zone which wasn't easy to cross comfortably, i picked green grass, to comfort my insides- it's not my fault i need drugs to feel less demised.
to even feel your touch, to attempt to make myself feel mundane.
i craved you yet i couldn't even feel okay,
we tried anyways.
i've been really sick of sleeping under the starlight of the computer screen, trying to sleep under the moon of you wanting to escape reality so badly.
i've never dealt with change well and now it's just obvious- i've changed myself.
i would say i'm sorry i wasted your time but you said i wasn't a waste of time, so i guess ill remember that one.
i know, "i'm not a waste of gas or effort" but i know sure as hell that she is.
both thinking so similarly, opposite genders can't be friends without a relationship.
something i never understood, yet you both so clearly have admitted your beliefs before.
the difference is that i gave our mutual friend a place to stay and you drove to his exes house an hour away.
something unexpected, unforgettable and even unfortunate- for the hope of us happening ever again.
i hope the drive was worth it, enjoy your road trip alone.