instead of making decisions to spite you, from now on- i make my decisions to know you'd be proud of me.
or the version of you that i knew at least.
you used to be my sole motivation, the only thing to get me out of bed in the morning.
and i'm not willing to let go of that because i will only let go of myself.
but that's what happens when you get too attached.
you managed to figure out a way to make me feel whole.
and i always told you how you weren't my only motivation, but my new year's resolution was to stop lying.
you were the only reason for me to wake up in the morning, as now you're the reason why i can't wake up.
all of my motivation disappears when i think of seeing your face, hearing your voice, hearing your name be called out to.
i can't handle that, just as you can't handle talking to me.
but i will continue talking to you in my dreams, in comfort that maybe you miss me as much as i do.
i make my decisions to know you'd be proud of me.
here's to working on myself, all for myself.
YOU ARE READING
my poetry - kelsey loch
Poetrymy personal work, all written by me - i post them here so i can reflect on myself and my writing easily. writing is my greatest passion, and i hope you love my work. all feedback is appreciated!
