What is it about..? (JeffBarcode)

The fury...

"Are you ready?" asks P'Ning

Barcode nods slowly...  it's not the place he wants to go... it will not be pleasant... however, he knows he needs to connect to Chay and connect with Jeff. They repeated this insanely long dialogue and the choreography together, but they haven't goofed around like usual... there was some distance... like goofing is not allowed or safe like before... everyone spent the rest of their time with someone else.

"Come closer, please... " says P'Ning, guiding him beside her.

"Hmm... Ok... I can see, Chay has no idea what to do. He doesn't even know what he wants now. He sees Kim's actions toward him. He may get that, but he doesn't trust him... he's still offended... hurt..." Barcode speaks reluctantly, stretching his neck

"Let's him being you... YOU don't trust him..."

"Yea..." he sighs heavily, closing his eyes in full focus.

"You put your faith in this man, and he turned you down..." she says, pointing at Jeff. "You opened up to him and he smashed that... and it hurts... he took your hope, destroyed your dreams about love... and just left like the calculated bastard..." she's pushing. Then adds gently "Still... you love him... very much... He is the first partner with whom you experienced closeness, intimacy...

"Hmm..." nods Barcode, glancing at Jeff he feels a tightening in his throat

"Now.. you are taken aback, upset, you have a fighting mood because you don't want to be hurt again... He constantly confuses you with his behavior, he came to sing here and you know he wasn't singing for others... Remember that you have seen this video and you are full of this terrible sight" says P'Ning firmly.

And he stays there letting all the pain and disappointment fill his insides... and it starts to be hard to catch his breath...

"...Kimhan. Jeff, come here, please" putting them face to face.

"So... Jeff, close your eyes... Kimhan... you soak up with him..." spells Ning giving him time to adjust.

Jeff nods his head "He's determined but cautious... he's not really sure..." looking at Barcode "Come... I need to connect with you..." he says, taking his hands. "Well... hmm... I'm wanna fix things...but I'm scared to mess this up again..."

"Exactly... and you're going there with this heaviness of guilt on your shoulders... YOU caused you both suffering. Your breakup was senseless, Chay is still in danger. And now you're meeting him... your biggest precious..."

Jeff's staring so deep into Barcode's eyes. These eyes seem so sad... yet so charming that cause him pain... He takes his face to contact... cheek to cheek... feeling close for a moment...

"Nooo..." sighs Barcode, writhing out of his grip "I... I need to piss off on you... I go..." he says, taking his leave

"You've never wanted anything as much as you want him, right now..." persuades P'Ning when they look at Barcodes leaving. "You missed him for so long... he's like made from glass in your eyes... and you don't wanna break it..."

And this is P'Ning doing magic, ladies and gentlemen... just like that, she takes you out of your own shoes to give you another's... So, when you are walking to the set, there is no you walking...

You are here... ready... concerned, with tightening in your chest... lump in your throat...

They are all in their place, the crew, there are many of them, but you push them all out of your head. There's only one face there... And even when the director is enlightening you about his ideas and expectations, you're not looking at him... so as not to disturb your focus...