𝐃𝐞𝐣𝐚 𝐕𝐮

𝐎𝐜𝐭𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐚 | 𝟔

Every minute I stay in my room, the smaller it gets. I need to get out of here. I get dressed and leave my room. It was 1pm right now and I had no clue where to go. I bump Rosa, and she looks at me with a cheeky smile. "Off to somewhere?" she asks. Rosa is a years older than me, she has red hair that runs down her back and green eyes.

"Today is a nice day Rosa, I could use fresh air." I say looking out the window. "Of course hun, enjoy your day." I nod and walk off. Over a short period we've become quite close, I guess we can relate as we both live with a monster of a man.

"Do you want to join me? I'm still unfamiliar of this town." I explain to her. She holds my shoulder with a smile. "I wish I could but I have to help X with something. Maybe later on I can watch a film with you." She apologises.

"Yeah sure. I'll probably walk around local." I tell her before she goes upstairs with a box in her hand.

I walk towards the house door as it opens from the other end. Ajax walks in and smiles at me. "Where you going belle?" he asks confused.

"Outside, can I not go out?" he grins and takes my hand kissing it. "Come on let's go out. I'll treat you to ice cream." A smile crawls on my face. How could I resist free ice cream?

I hop in his grey G-wagon and he drives through Senzo Coves busiest streets. He parks his car and we walk around. We some how end up shopping and man was there alot of bags. "What about this store belle." He says innocently pointing at victoria secrets. "I don't mind watching you try them." He says with a smirk.

"More like you don't mind getting into the store managers panties hm." I say. We both laugh and walk towards food court. It was now 3pm and we're in mac donalds. I ordered an apple pie and chips along with caramel frappe while Ajax orders ten chicken nuggets and two big mac meal.

While we wait for our food to come, Ajax's phone rings. He flips his phone so I could see the name, Xavier. "You didn't tell him you're out with me?" Ajax asks.

I shake my head, "I didn't even know I was going out with you." He lets the phone ring ignoring Xavier's call. "He's gonna flip, let's enjoy our meal before taiming the beast." he says laughing, though his tone didnt sound very jokey.

We spend the next half hour talking and eating our food. I've been starving for a while now, but never had the appitite at home. I guess being in a different environment makes you feel abit better.

The drive home was quite long, we came home around 5pm as it was beginning to get dark. I help Ajax get the bags out of his boot and we both walk to the front door, "Thank you for today, I defo needed that." I tell him.

"Anytime you need to escape Xavier, call me" we both get in and drop the bags near the staircase. Ajax says goodbye before leaving. I walk to the dark living room, a whirlwind of coldness grips me out of no where. My hands rub my arms as I walk to the windows.

"Where were you?" I yelp as I turn around. Xavier was sat on the couch with a glass of God knows what in his hand. His legs were stretched infront of him and one hand was resting on the arm rest. "You scared me." I mutter as I take a seat on the sofa near him.

He stands up and becomes all stiff and broad and intimidating. He comes between my legs and lift my chin up with his fingers. It's scary how he masters his emotions. It's as if all happiness vanishes when you look at his cold, stern face. "What am I going to do with you little jewel. Going out without telling me, you could have got hurt."

"I'm alive aren't I?" I say shrugging my shoulders. I didn't see what the issue was. "Don't you understand. I have enemies Octavia. People who would do anything to get to me and you're a huge target."

"So now you're all caring? I'm sick of your mood swings." I scoff really annoyed. "I vowed to protect you but I can't do that if you go out and about without me knowing." His voice was getting louder by the words.

"Yeah and locking me in a room is protecting me." I snap back in a rude tone. I was exhausted of being alone all the time. Rosa was great but even she has a duty to forfil while I sat around with absolutely nothing to do.

"You're catching up. I'm not a good person Octavia but I have a role to play. All you have to do is be the happy wife and you're sorted."

"How can you call this way of living happy. I'm alone all the time, isolating in a room most the days. I don't recall stepping out of this house until today." I stop to catch my breath.

"I'm doing this for your safety not mine. Stop fucking questioning me, I don't have the patience to put up with you." My eyes begin to sting as it waters slowly. I hated being yelled at but I wasn't about to cry infront of him. Never.

"Fine then. I'll stay away from you and go put with Ajax more. Thst's what you want right? To distance me?" I keep my voice steady and strong. I am not going to break so easily.

He tilts his head and smiles. Not that smile, this really isn't good. "Do you want the blood of Ajax on your hand?" he question hits me unexpectedly. He must be so drunk. "You wouldn't hurt your cousin."

"When it comes to you little jewel I will kill any man who isn't me." Did he really mean that? He pulls me up by my arm and smashes his lips onto mine. The kiss was more harsh and desperate. I give in and allow his tounge in. Suddenly he pushes me away shaking his head. "Fuck, no no." He looks me in the eye and all I see it regret.

Running his hands through his hair, he turns to his feet and walks out leaving me in the dark.

I storm out of the living room and follow him to the stairs. I grab his muscular arm and whisper shout, "Dont do that. Do-don't drop your guard then build this wall again."

He looks at me, "Let go of me." I shake my head furiously. He's confusing my mind, he doesn't want me but he acts overprotective. Is this the minimum he was tallking about?.

"You can't just want me when you feel like it then suddenly treat me like rubbish." He turns his head away from me and I take two steps so I can look at him without straining my neck. I grab his face forcing him to look at me. "Don't ignore me. What do you want from me? If you can't love me then why do these things to me."

His poker face remains still. "Like I said little jewel I will destroy you and I will enjoy it." My eyes flicker. "What have I done? Why can't you simply want me?" I wanted him to answer. His eyes soften for a second then turn dark and hollow.

He barges past me walking up the stairs. "So you're just going run away like always huh. Why do you always block me whenever you let me in. Why are you so afraid?" I dont understand him. One moment he makes my heart pump fast the next he stabs it left right and center. If this wad the marriage I saw growing up, I wouldn't even think about finding a husband.

He turns around and comes down walking towards me. HIs eyes are dark and eyebrows are forrowed. I take a few steps back, He chuckles deeply, "Afraid. You think I'm fucking afraid?" He bellows. Please don't shout at me. His hands come up as I flinch shutting my eyes tightly. I shake as the memories of my mother angry strucks me like lightning. Tucking my hair behind my ears, his eyes fill with concern. "Did you think I will hit you?" His voice is more smooth and soft. It seemed like he actually cared. I try not to cry infront of him, I will not show him weakness.

I shake my head holding my breath. Nows not the time to remember this. He's not her. She's not here. He sees the worry on my face, "I will chop my own hands before I ever lay my fingers on you." My eyes water as I think of my mother mercilessly hitting me when we were alone. I never had it in me to stop her, It came to the point where my begging did nothing. She never listened to me no one did.

Stroking my cheeks, he quietly says, "There is a lot you don't know little jewel. Don't push me." His voice was pleading for the first time he just wanted me to understand. I don't say anything. Is he being nice to me right now, or does he pity me? I don't stop him from walking away. I know if I do I wont be able to stop myself from pouring my eyes out.

I rush to my room and my sadness quickly turns to anger then confusion. I think about how he spoke to me gently. Every word sounded heartfelt. "I will chop my own hands if i ever lay my fingers on you." Even when he acts distant with me, when he's close to me he is a admirable man. Oh Xavier please don't let me fall for you if you won't feel the same.