Living Heartbroken (One Direction)

Time to move on chatper 22

*Louis's POV*

It happened again that feeling that nothing will ever be the same. That nothing will ever be right again..

I have this awful nightmare every night, the same one over and over again.. It starts out by me talking to Ariana, I'm happy and laughing and looking at how beautiful she looks.. Then all of a sudden I'm not looking at Ariana I'm looking at Harry.. And Harry is so dark looking, his normally bright greens eyes are dark and sick and his usual curly brown hair is dyed black.. He looks dead but also sad.

After a while he speaks and says "I could still be here.. If you would have came faster."

Than the nightmare is over. He is right tho, if I would have stayed with him or ran faster he would still be here.

I'm trying to stop blaming myself for what happened but I can't help but feel like he needed me to come quicker that he wanted me to save him but I let him down.. And now he is gone forever.

Every morning at 4 am I wake from this nightmare and panic looking around my room for him but he isn't there.. So I get up slowly and creep my way to Mia's room because she is the closest thing to Harry I have left.

Once again she hears me enter the room and she sits up patting the stop beside her for me to sit down. I walk over to the bed and sit down turning my body so I'm looking at Mia. "I miss him." She whispers "I Miss him too." And with that I drifted back into my head and fell asleep.

--next morning--

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From Ariana: Hey Lou, I really miss talking to you.

I do miss talking to her. She is perfect for me but she just came at a wrong time in my life. Hopefully things will get better and I can be happy with her. That's all I really want is to be happy.

To Ariana: Hey babe, I'm sorry I have been distant.. Maybe we can go out this weekend?

*Zayn's POV*

I haven't seen or talked to the boys or Mia since Harry died. I got a message for his funeral which was today but I couldn't bring myself to go.

I left after everything happened and I didn't tell anyone where I was going. I decided to go to America. I didn't want to go to a huge city where everyone would notice me so I went to Columbus, Oh.

I have always been a very quiet person and not really the type to share my emotions so I think that's why I left and the fact that I just lost my best mate.

I haven't talked to Perrie either and I don't really want to because she wouldn't understand why I left.. She would tell me that the boys needed me and I should go back but I can't.

Harry will never realize how much he meant to every fan and every person he met. He was a great lad, always caring and smiling.. Out of all of us in the band Harry was the one who would go out of his way meeting the fans and talking to them. I guess that's why he was always in trouble with Simon.

Harry was the kind of person who wouldn't talk much but he would always listen so whenever I had trouble with my relationship with Perrie I would come to Harry. He never had a problem with telling me that I was being a douch bag.

Harry is irreplaceable.

**MIA'S Dream**

'Come on Harry!!' I screamed while Harry ran straight into the pool Doing a cannonball.

he pounded his fist into the water, causing waves in the calm water. He looks so perfect with his soft curls dripping water and his green eyes sparkling in the sun. He smirks that smirk that so many girls love including me and dives under the water to where I can't see him.

'Eeeeep!' I screeched feeling Harry's hand grab my bum. He comes up underneath me and I'm sitting on his shoulder when he rises up out of the water.

'Harry! Let.. Me down! I panic feeling as if I was going to fall even tho I know he would never let me fall.

He grabs two towels and carry's me over to the outdoor shower and sits me down on my feet.

I look down at my toes and look back up at Harry who is standing above me gazing down at me with those gorgeous eyes. I slowly ease my way up till I have my hand around his neck wiggling my fingers thro his soft curls. I arch my toes and brush my lips past his till they connect in a slow warm kiss.

I look up at his eyes and immediately see them darken like he is now gone.

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I'm sorry for this... I'm ashamed to have even wrote this chapt. I'm just.

I don't even know it's poop...

I wrote this is math sooo...

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