Soukoku Mini Stories

Late-night smoking and Regrets. (Story 35)

Chuya unlocked his apartment door, he had an exhausting and rough day at work. He looked at his arm with a bloody wound, but he ignored it and stripped out of his work clothes getting into more comfortable clothing. He sat on the couch staring into the abyss, he clenched his shirt. "Why the fuck do I have this...need for your stupid presence." Chuya looked over at his small coffee table, there were old photographs of him and Dazai together back in the Mafia.

Chuya likes to look at the photos a few times a week, tonight was one of those times. He grabbed the photographs looking through them, a smile forming on his lips. "At times I do miss this asshole." Chuya rested his finger on Dazai's portrait in the photo. A heavy sigh escaped his lips, Chuya looked up at the clock above him seeing it was almost midnight. "He is probably sleeping by now..." He bit his lip in frustration. "God, you have me fucked up you asshole." Chuya's cheeks were flustered as he grabbed his cell phone from his pocket calling him.

Ringing followed by more ringing- "Hello?" Chuyas's blue eyes widen hearing Dazai's voice on the phone, did he pick up, or is this voicemail? "Chuya, what do you want? It's eleven at night-" "Come to my place." "Huh?" "Just...Get your ass over here." "Hmph, alright give me a few minutes." Chuya hung up their call, and he exhaled. "Jesus Christ get ahold of yourself." Chuya mentally punched and kicked himself a few times.

It was now midnight in Yokohama, there were bangs at Chuya's apartment door kicking Chuya out of his thoughts. "Oh shit, he actually showed up?" Chuya walked over to his apartment door seeing his brunette hair, and his brown mysterious eyes in front of him. "You showed up?" Chuya said out loud and instantly regretted saying it. "Well yeah? I mean we were partners after all." Dazai let himself inside Chuya's apartment, Chuya was frozen in shock still holding the door for a few seconds before snapping out of his thoughts. "Is this a new place Chibi? It looks nice." "Do you wanna smoke?" Chuya offered and grabbed a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, Dazai looked at Chuya and then at the cigarettes. "Sure why not."

Dazai made his way to the balcony of the apartment, Chuya poured himself a glass of wine before joining him. They both sat down outside to smoke together. "Chibi, remember when we first smoked cigarettes together? You couldn't handle it, now look at you, big boy!" Dazai chuckled, Chuya glared at him and then exhaled a ring of smoke. "I enjoyed doing that." He mumbled to himself, "How's work at the Agency going?" Chuya looked at Dazai, Dazai exhaling his ring of smoke. 

"You know, same-o lame-o, heh. What about you?" Chuya sighed leaning back in his chair, "Mori is planning something big on the other side of the world. He wants the executives to go and complete the task." "Oh? Where is this happening at?" "I honestly have no clue, he's still planning everything." Chuya looked at Dazai, and Dazai returned the look. "I remember my first mission in the Mafia that took place in South Korea." "Oh really? Tell me about it." Dazai told Chuya about his mission in South Korea, and Chuya just listened to his former partner's story. 

Both of them told stories about their missions in the Port Mafia. Eventually, Chuya's exhaustion hit him, and his eyes were struggling to stay open. "Yeah, and we defeated the enemy obviously, and collected the red crystals. Of course, I took one for myself, Mori was not getting all forty of them, duh." Dazai chuckled and noticed his partner dozing off, "Chuya? Do you wanna head inside and sleep now?"

"Hmm? No no, I'm fine." "Fine my ass, you are literally falling asleep in your chair. C'mon, let us go." Dazai stomped on his cigarette and scooped Chuya up in his arms, "Jesus Christ, put me down asshole." "Nope! It's past your bedtime." Dazai carried Chuya inside, locking the balcony door behind him making his way to Chuya's bedroom. "Wow, this is nice Chibi." Dazai gently put Chuya on his bed, Chuya looked at him half awake, "Are you gonna leave?" "I'll stay." Dazai took off his shoes and got into Chuya's bed. Dazai lay down closing his eyes, Chuya held onto Dazai's arm completely passed out and snoring. 

Dazai cracked a smile and a light laugh escaped his lips. "Goodnight Chibi." Dazai didn't sleep at all, he just admired Chuya's features, lightly tracing his nose, jawline, and chin. The sun's rays shined in Chuya's room, he covered his eyes letting a moan escape his lips. "Argh, fuck." He put his pillow over his face, his senses were telling him something was not right.

He sat up and looked around, Dazai was gone. Chuya let a sad sigh escape his lips, "I fucking knew it." He covered his face as he started crying, he was again, mentally punching and kicking himself. "It was a bad idea inviting your stupid ass over." He said to himself in between sobs, "Now I'm fucked up all over again."