MATURING!!

ALONE❓

I still didn't tell Melo and today was my first appointment, I was freaking out because what do I tell him? Where do I tell him I'm going?

" I think I'll keep it to myself" I thought out loud but then my mood changed. How mad was he going to be at me for not telling him? Was he gonna hit me for not telling him? Fuck it, if he hit me again I'm leaving so of course that thought was cleared

All these thoughts ran through my head but I literally didn't know what to do because how the hell do I tell him I already had to be about 2 months . He was going to be pissed, I walked around the room thinking if I should tell him or not. The longer I keep it from him the angrier he'll be. UGHHHH fuck my life I'm not telling him.

I got dress because I was nervous and I only had about an hour and a half to get to my apt. I knew my nerves wouldn't allow me to get dress here so I just washed up, threw something on and grabbed my outfit going to Nana house. Her and Pa was outta town so only one I would have to see is Patience but she probably not there so I can definitely run there and get dress.

* PHONE RINGS*

" Goodmorning Melo" I irritatedly said because it's like he sense everytime I was about to leave or do something

" Goodmorning Kay Where you going" I looked around because how the hell do he be knowing shit

" To visits my mom" I didn't even wanna start an argument because then he'll wanna keep going and I'll really miss my appointment

" You want me to come with you" he asked me which surprised me because I thought he was gonna be an asshole. I started feeling bad because I was hidding the fact that I was pregnant, ugh these fucking hormones.

" No I'm okay I just wanna spend some time with her imma sit there for a little while" I crossed my heart and blew a kiss up to heaven because I was lying on my mami

" okay I love you be careful and call me if you need me" i was about ti say it back but he started talking again

" you sure you good? I can come with you" I closed my eyes shaking my head because he was trying to hold me on the phone he wasn't slick

" yes I'm okay I love you more and be safe" I hung up because if not he wouldn't of hung up

*Dont do that shit again* Text from Melo

I knew that he was talking about me hanging up so I didn't text back I just drove of heading to nana house. When I got there I was right nobody was here, I felt like I didn't really shower properly because of my nerves so I hopped in again and fully got dressed. I rushed out the house so I wouldn't run into nobody and hopped in my car headed for the doctors office.

I shook my leg nervously as I sat and waited to be called in the back.

" Ms. Jonas" I heard the lady call my name out and I got up going to the back with her

" Goodmorning How you doing" She started off as she walked me to the room to get my weight and height

" Im fine and you" I spoke back following behind her

" I'm good ready to go home my boss been driving me mad" we both laughed and she guided me on the scale

"Your weight is 120 and your height isssss" she dragged out while I went to the stadiometer

" 157.48 cm which is" before she could say it I called out

" 5 ft 2 in" we called out together

" you a nurse or something" she asked and I chuckled

" No my dad actually work at the hospital across town" she looked surprised

" I'm not the one to be in someones business but you didn't prefer to go there" I shrugged my shoulders

" it's fine but I wanna surprise him"I told her simply as she stopped me at my room

" We'll our staff here is very welcoming, your doctor will be in here shortly and it was nice talking to you" she smiled and I waved

I sat back scrolling on Instagram, i still had my finsta so I was on there

I was sitting there for about 5 mins before the Doctor walked in

" Goodmorning Ms. Jonas how you feeling today?" She asked me as she did whatever she was doing on the computer

" everything been good besides the morning sickness and headaches Do you know how long that usually happen for" i asked clueless to the whole pregnancy journey

" so before we get into all that I wanna confirm that your pregnant and we wanna get to how far along your are and your due date" she turned to me so we could talk face to face

" However As for your first trimester you can expect to experience cramps, Nausea, Headaches, heartburn, tender breast and don't get concerned if you spot a little but if you get too worried don't ever be afraid to come in we're always welcomed to help...So I do have a few exams for us to do today being as though it's your first appointment but before we get to that I wanna ask did you wanna do ultrasounds and if you are far along enough did you wanna listen to the little ones heartbeat" My heart fluttered because this was all going to fast

" yes I would like to do both" i chimed in I knew I was pretty far along because I been knew I just refused to believe it or tell anybody

" okay well let's get started" she smiled as the assistant came in with equipment. First thing we did was the urine and blood test confirming what I already knew. Then we did a physical exam and all the other things to ensure I'll have a healthy pregnancy.

" phewww now that we got through all that now we can get to the exciting part of the appointment before we start I wanna confirm that your due date will be on December 19 2023, when you leave here you'll be prescribed prenatal vitamins " I nodded my head laughing cause that was three days before Melo birthday. I shook my head he was really gonna kill me.

" Do you wanna see his or her heartbeat first or do you wanna see them" she asked and i looked at her confused

" them?" I looked at her like she was crazy and she laughed

" no not like that it's just we don't know the gender of the baby yet so I don't wanna misgender them" I sigh in relief

" I was scared for a second but can we do the heartbeat first ?" She nodded setting up the monitor

" okay you ready mama this might be a little cold" i shook my head and she placed the gel on my belly as soon as the baby heartbeat echoed through the room Melo contact popped up on my screen...