MATURING!!

IM NOT READY‼️‼️

I was in so much pain not only from the contractions but from him beating my ass.

" WHAT THE FUCK " I screamed out in pain this was too much going on. As we was coming in the hospital I glimpsed in the mirror at my face wincing.

I had a cut on my eye, my lip was busted, my eyes were puffy,forming bruises and my nose had dried blood stain. My hair was all over the place and not to mention my body had light bruises forming EVERYWHERE.

" DONT TELL THEM SHIT OR YOU GONNA BE IN HERE FOR A WHOLE OTHER REASON" he told me through clenched teeth.I couldn't believe he was threatening me while I was about to have HIS child. What really did I expect?

" Melo I'm not gonna tell them anything" my lip quivered as I tried to my best not to let tears drop

" CAN WE GET SOME HELP OVER HERE"he screamed soon as we got to the main area. A few nurses ran over to me to see what was going on

" Are you okay, let's check on the baby" everything was going to fast and I felt like I was going to hyperventilate . It was too much movement going on in front of me.

" Just breathe" that's all it took for him to say for my nerves to calm. I couldn't afford him snapping on me right now.I knew he was still mad so I just needed to be calm even though the pain was unbearable

" Do you need me to ask him to leave" I didn't know if she was concerned for my physical state or the way I kept looking at him. Whatever it was I was thankful she was concerned

He looked at me sternly as she whispered in my ears. I shook my head no because I was just in so much pain I don't need no issues.

They rushed me into one of the labor and delivery rooms. They set everything up quickly. Everything went so fast

" your only 6.5 centimeters mom 3.5 more to go and baby is ready to come out" my eyes got wide because I couldn't take this pain for much longer

" can I get the epidural please" I cried out because the pain was indescribable

" yes give me a moment I'll get the doctor for you" I was super uncomfortable my face was hurting, my body ached and my head was on 10,000

He was standing in the corner with a scold on his face. I didn't expect this experience to go this way it was devastating

" Melo im sorry" that was all I had to say because he didn't wanna hear nothing else

" shut up Kaydence I'm here for my daughter" I don't know why that broke my heart but it kinda did. It was all the emotions I was going through I guess

We waited for about 5 minutes before the doctor came in to give me the epidural

" you ready mom" I smiled slightly, I was embarrassed everybody had to see my face like this

" yes" he was scolding everybody that had walked in,I wanted to excuse him so bad but I was better off keeping quiet

" hey dad I'm gonna ask if you can step out for a moment" i damn near sunk into the bed. I don't know why this doctor said anything to him

" I'm not going no where" I looked at him with wide eyes. I guess the doctor sense to much tension so he left the situation alone.

" okay I'm gonna need you to be super still" i nodded my head. I don't know to much about what happened during the moment because I blacked it out. I hated needles, let alone the big ass one they just put in my back

They cleaned up everything and left but not before telling me they'll be back to check on me. I was kinda relieved now because I couldn't feel the pain. I couldn't even feel my legs

I kept looking at Melo because he hadn't took his eyes off me since we got in here. I wish I could read what was going on in his mind because he was insane. I needed to say something

" Melo you constantly acted like you didn't know this girl the whole time y'all were together im not saying anything to start an argument but you told me over and over you would be honest" he was just staring I was getting so nervous talking to him. He hated getting caught up in his problems

" so you try to take my fucking daughter from me" I didn't understand why he was yelling he was the cause of all of this arguing

" you don't treat me right what makes you think your gonna treat her right" he was heated it was written all over his face

" I told you shut the fuck up didn't I ?" He had nothing else to say that's why he said that. I laid my head back and relaxed. I don't even know why I'm trying to talk to him he made it clear he was here for his daughter.

I looked around for my phone, I knew I grabbed it. I couldn't move my legs and it was no point in asking him because it would just start an unnecessary argument

" what you looking for" I mentally cursed myself because he wasn't suppose to catch me. But I was being stupid because he hadn't took his eyes off me since we got in here

" nothing just looking around" I lied I was horrible at lying so it pointless of me to be doing it

" you looking for this" he held my phone up it was shattered and cracked in half. I showed him no emotions but inside I was literally dying.

" you get ya ass beat because of all the stupid shit you do, you think I do that shit because my mistakes, NO I do that's shit because you so fucking hard headed " I was baffled because he was literally making it seem like I was the cause to the problem

" I constantly tell you the same shit over and over and ya dumb ass just keep doing it" I let him rant because I needed him to get it all out before the nurses came in to check on me. I knew they heard him outside of the room but nobody ever came in to check.

" then when somebody get ready to beat ya ass you wanna be sorry, No fuck that sorry shit DONT DO THE SHIT" I just sat there crying because One I was emotional. Two I was going through this whole process for US,this wasn't just MY baby and three he wouldn't stop yelling at me so I was scared.

I envisioned a labor room filled with love and support. A partner who would stay beside me even when I was angry from the pain. Instead I got him, an arrogant and ignorant asshole.

" Then you had a nerve to get a restraining order against me with my child in you I should beat your ass again" he just wouldn't stop, he clearly see I didn't want to argue but kept going. I clinched on the sheet because I knew in my mind the more he talked he was gonna hit me.

" Im sorry Melo I wasn't thinking right" what else was there to say ?... Seriously?

" You damn right you wasn't thinking straight I should punch you in ya fucking face" everything that come out his mouth was always a threat

I didn't say nothing after that and neither did he, he got on his phone doing whatever and I ended up falling asleep. This was gonna be a LONG labor...