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"KAIRI it's not that serious" we had been home for 3 days and she was driving me crazy. A true cry baby.

I picked her up and she stopped, this the shit I was telling him. He got her so spoiled and now he was in and out, here but still in and out.I hated this house I wanted to leave so bad but now I had the baby to think about.

I fed her because she was greedy and a cry baby. Two things that'll never work together. I still don't have a phone but everybody knew that I had her. His mom had just left literally like 5 minutes ago

I hadn't seen Patience yet because they been on vacation for her baby moon. I wasn't jealous of my best friend I just wish my experience wasn't so fucked

" Rae daddy home" I heard Melo yell out, as he walked in the room. He was fanning his hands so I'm assuming he put on hand sanitizer

" can you be quiet she just went to sleep" he rolled his eyes and grabbed her from me

" wake up pretty girl" it was my turn to roll my eyes now, his ass better not leave because I needed a shower and a nap

" are you staying in" I wanted to know if I could do what i needed

" yeah why" he looked at me suspiciously

" because I wanna take a shower and nap I pumped so she have bottles but she just ate" he nodded his head walking out the room with her

I didn't know if I wanted to shower first or take a nap but I needed both badly. I closed my eyes, fuck it I needed a nap more than anything.
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When I woke up it was 3:45 in the after noon that was a good sleep but why would he let me sleep that long. I instantly jumped up because he was naive he would probably take my child because I tried to leave.

I didn't have time to fix nothing or even put shoes on. I ran out in the living room he wasn't there, I checked in the kitchen because maybe he was getting a bottle but no. I could have sworn he sat in the living room. I checked in the baby room and a tear slipped.

I didn't wanna think he was going to take her from me but he was devious. They was both sleep in rocking chair , he had it laid straight out and his arms wrapped around her. I saw the baby moving so I stepped back.I didn't bother them because I refuse to deal with him right now

Instead I went in the bathroom it was time I got ME ready. First I took a shower, I had to be in there for about an hour. I knew I was because I had washed my hair not once not twice but three times. I felt so dirty, and this was exactly what I needed

Before I left the bathroom I did my skin care routine, it felt so good and I was feeling refreshed. I left out the bathroom and moisturized my body from neck to toe. I knew I was still breastfeeding so I put on a cropped gym top,my stomach band and some biker shorts. I wasn't going anywhere anyway by the time I was done she was crying.

It was like she knew when I got myself situated. He came in the bathroom with her

" I don't know why she crying she won't stop, she probably want you" I rolled my eyes because he know she didn't want me, I don't sit and hold her all day

I grabbed her and latched her. She didn't want me she just didn't want the bottle.

" you have to make her take the bottle because if not she not gonna get use to it and she gonna have to be with me all day" I looked at me like I was stupid

" she is gonna be with you all day" he told me in a matter of fact tone

" no what about when I wanna go outside and you have to watch her or when your mom wanna take her" he was shaking his head no

" nah she don't need to be with nobody else and you got a child now you don't need to be outside just doing anything" now it was my turn to look at him crazy

" just because I had a baby don't mean I have to be in the house bad enough my whole pregnancy was me being confined to the house" he was staring at me like he was daring me to keep going. I didn't say nothing I just walked out the bathroom with the baby

I sat on the couch but like I already said it was literally nothing for me to do but sit here

" I'm ordering food what you getting" I didn't want nothing but I knew I needed to eat because I was breastfeeding. My supply of milk needed to keep coming in how it was.

" waffles,eggs,and cheese grits" I didn't have a taste for meat ever since I had the baby " can you get me an orange juice too"

He nodded his head and ordered the food. He ordered mine and then ordered his, I was kinda hoping he would leave. At least if I had to be in the house we didn't need him in here. Soon as he got off the phone I asked him

" when can I have my phone back" he was ignoring me typing on his phone. I started  burping the baby because she was done eating. She was just sitting here with her eyes open, she was beautiful but I wanted her to be my twin. She was literally his splitting image but I loved her.

" Melo I know you heard me" he looked at me but never said nothing

" Don't ask me no stupid shit that's gonna piss me off when ever I get ready to give it to you" he snatched the baby but not hard enough to make her body jerk. He got up going wherever , he was never gonna change. I sat on the couch looking for something to watch.

It was never that serious, I mentally rolled my eyes because when was he ever not on 10. I don't know when but I know I ended up falling asleep

" the food here" he woke me up and I got up rubbing the sleep out my eyes. He still had her in his arms, I didn't say nothing because he was here more anyway. Even though I didn't want him to be, it was a big help.

" I'll get you a phone tomorrow" I smiled from ear to ear because I just "knew" he was gonna be an asshole and never give me my phone back

" don't do no dumb shit I promise you won't EVER get that shit back"...