MATURING!!

AWAY OR⁉️

I had no clue of my next move but I know I needed to make it. I had been walking for a little over a hour before I saw a gas station. My palms was so sweaty and my breathing was everywhere. My feet was extremely swollen and they was starting to hurt

" can I please use your phone" I asked the lady behind the register. I wouldn't call nobody but a cab.

" are you okay" she was asking to much and I just needed to use her phone

" yes can I use you phone please" I asked again because obviously she didn't hear me the first time. She passed it to me and I dial the taxi number.

" can I get a cab to..." I told them the address and passed her the phone back

" thank you" I passed it back and went to grab a water. I was feeling nauseous I knew it was because I knew if he catch me, he'd probably hurt me.I paid for the water and sat on the bench

My leg was shaking and my hands was sweating. The cab was taking so long.He finally had pulled up and I rushed to the car hopping in but not before thanking the lady for letting me use her phone again

" how much you gonna charge me to take me to New York?" He looked at me crazy but I pulled out 300 dollars in hundreds and passed it to him. It was only an one and a half hour away

" this'll be fine" I sat back in the cab and cried because I was honestly hurt. I did love him because beside the abuse he was caring and loving. I was always told to write down the pros and the cons of a relationships. If the cons outweigh the pros than it's not meant to be. That's exactly how I saw it with him. There was no freedom for me, I didn't have a phone, I couldn't do or say half of the things I use to because he was always on my back about something. He was an evil/ bipolar  person and I can't afford risking me or my child life.

I couldn't keep my eyes open but I refused to fall asleep in the cab. I knew we was close because I saw the Newark Airport. I sat up because the more I laid the tired I would get. I knew Ms. Mary,the concierge, had told Melo by now and he probably was at the house. He was probably so pissed he probably didn't think to just ride because I didn't have a phone or anything. I couldn't contact nobody, I shook him out of my head because we was here.

" you can stop me right here" he had stop me right in the middle of time square " you sure"

I nodded my head and thanked him getting out the car. Soon has I got out the car I smiled because I was really away from him.

First thing first I needed a phone. I shook my head because I should have had him take me to a T-Mobile then bring me here.It was a hotel here. whenever my dad and us would vacation here this where we would stay.

" princess Kaydence is HAVING A BABY " Milo played with me soon as I walked in the building

" yes I'm trapped Mi" i laughed walking to the desk getting ready to check in

"Damn somebody was able to get to you before me DAMNNNNN"we laughed together

"Be quiet you know you still my favorite boyfriend" I played with him. We had never dated but he did have a crush on me. He was a handsome chocolate man but I could see myself with him

"favorite NO, only YES" he played to much but I needed a good laugh right now

" your stupid" I sat my purse on the counter as I got my information out

" where pop and kayden" he looked at me a little confused

" I need to get away from everybody for a month" I shook my head because it wasn't just for a month

" understandable you know if you need me you can always come on down" he passed me the room key and I thanked him going up to my room

When I got upstairs, I fell right on the bed. My body and mind was so drained.I laid on the bed for about an hour, I couldn't make myself move so I laid there.

I contemplated on calling him just to tell him I was okay and to just give me space but for what. He was going to rise my blood pressure and I couldn't risk going in to early labor.

I picked the phone up but put it back down. I trusted Patience with everything in me but something in my stomach was telling me not to tell her anything. I got up and got in the shower because I needed to go to the store before they closed. I still had some time before they closed so I took my time in the shower.

I got out  and threw back on the clothes I had because I didn't bring nothing but a purse. I grabbed my purse and left out the room. When I stepped out the hotel I watched my surroundings. Even though I'm pretty certain he didn't know where I was.

I walked in T-Mobile and was instantly greeted

" how you doing today is there anything I can help you with" one of the associates asked

" yes I wanna start a new plan I wanna get the iPhone 14 pro max and I wanna buy it out fully" I told him I didn't wanna make payments on the phone, only pay the bill.

" okay follow me I can help you with that" I followed him to his area and pulled out my ID. He was typing in the computer I'm assuming putting my in information.

" Is there a specific color and gigabyte you want?" This all took me back to the day I was trying to buy my phone with Melo mom

" you okay" I was stuck in a trance but he snapped me out of it.

" yeah umm can I get purple and I'll take the highest gigabyte you have" I told him

" okay give me one second im gonna make sure we have that" he walked off to go to the back and make sure they had it. When he came back with the phone the smile on my face would not go away.

" welp look like we do have it" he smiled and I was already smiling back. I hadn't had a phone in about 3 months, that's the longest I ever been without a phone.

He finished helping me with the process and I left out the store. I was so excited I went a little shopping. I grabbed a few outfits and sneakers and went back to the hotel.

" Did you come down here to relax or shop" Milo called out as I walked in

" Milo I don't think I asked you" I laughed it off as I got on the elevator. I couldn't stay off my phone, I was like a kid in the candy store. Even though there was literally nothing on it. I couldn't resist just looking at it and keep locking and unlocking it

I didn't know whether to call anyone to let them know I'm fine. Get my instagram back or just have it for emergency. I just went with my last option because everybody I call was bound to tell Melo. Can't call my dad because he's been booked with surgeries non stop. I was surprised he was able to talk earlier.I didn't wanna risk getting social media because I need to stay hidden.

I plopped on the bed just in a daze. My life was not going as I expected. My pregnancy wasn't even going as expected.I was in a daze for so long I ended up falling a sleep.

I woke up the next day and got something to eat. I realized I never ate yesterday I was just so overwhelmed. I decided to download instagram but log into my finsta.

*BESTIEEEE CALL ME ITS IMPORTANT!!* that was Patience comment under my last finsta post.I sat the phone Down because now I know he knew.

I wasn't enjoying this it was seeming more stressful than being with him but I knew it was to late to turn now. I need to start looking for a place to stay, staying in a hotel was cool and all but 9,000 dollars a month. I could be living in a high rise for that.

I got up because I needed to be productive   but before I do anything I needed to do this.

" could you tell me where I can go to get a restraining order..."