MATURING!!

OVER IT‼️‼️

I finally had got back to the hotel room and hopped straight in the shower.After I got out my body felt so tired so I laid down. I was over this whole pregnancy experience. I didn't have a good pregnancy and not because of my health or anything but because the father of my child was a lunatic.

I laid in the bed just thinking about life, being grown didn't get me no where but in a situation I can't get out. Here I am 19 with a baby and a crazy baby dad that can't keep his hands to himself. I just decided to stay in because I was already freezing when I was out there. Even though nobody told me to wear a dress in cold ass New York.

I was sitting around doing absolutely nothing I ended up falling asleep.

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" what you gonna do when you see her " I looked at him like he was dumb. He knew I didn't give a fuck about nothing I did

" nigga don't ask me no dumb ass question" I had smoked at least like 10 blunts in the last 30 minutes.

" I'm not bailing yo ass out if you get locked up" I shrugged my shoulders this nigga must not know my pops name hold weight around the east coast. Not even just here this nigga had a reputation everywhere.

" ion give a fuck nigga just mind ya business when we get here" it wasn't shit he or nobody else could do anyways. He held his hands up in defense.

I knew exactly where she was it was just a matter of her actually still being there when I got there. She was very intelligent but what she doing now wasn't smart at all. It was too easy to find her. She used her name for the room and she recently just got a phone. I laughed to myself because this was a joke to me.

" can we stop and get something to eat" i side eyed him because this nigga act like a bitch. Greedy ass alway hungry

" I'm not stopping yo Ass gonna wait" I light my blunt

" nigga you wanna keep smoking on a empty stomach shit I'm to skinny for this shit" I ignored him we only had about 45 minutes left his ass was waiting anyway

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When I got up I was starving. I never ate the biscuits because I had fell right to sleep and now I didn't have a taste for them.

I got out the bed rubbing the sleep out my eyes.She was pressing on my bladder so I ran to the bathroom as fast as my stomach would let me.

I decided to just order room service they had some of the best food here. Beside I didn't wanna go out because I didn't wanna bundle up, I hated a lot of clothes on.

" Hey Milo" I just knew it was him that answered the phone

" hey sleeping beauty" he flirted like always " i came to your room to bring the towels you requested but you were sleeping"

" oh snap I totally forgot about that thank you so much but I called to order room service" I told him my stomach was steady growling

" okay what can I get you,your highness" I laughed cause all his did was play

" May I have a cheesesteak with ketchup and hot peppers no mayo PLEASE and can I get fried pickles, a side of french fries" I was indecisive so I ordered both

" and can I get a strawberry milkshake with extra whip cream please" I smiled through the phone like he could see me

" okay coming right up" he laughed before hanging. I got up and took a shower because my body was hurting and I needed it

By the time I was getting out the shower my food was coming

" oh damn ion need no tip" his voice was full of shock. I had came to the door in my towel

" boy give me my food" I laughed grabbing my tray and shutting the door but not before thanking him

I sat down in my towel and ate I couldn't get dress because I was starving. Well not me but I know I needed to think about my daughter. She was still going ballistic

I grabbed my phone to see if I had any notifications even though I know I didn't because nobody had my number and I deleted instagram again.

After I was done I cleaned up and got dress just to lay back in the bed. Doing all that had me tired again. Ughhhh I hated pregnancy for the sleepiness and the bathroom use.I ran in the bathroom because she was pressing on my bladder for the MILLIONTH time.

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" what the fuck you mean she got a restraining order" I yelled through the phone at my dad. He shouldn't have even called me on no dumb shit

" you know I can handle it just don't go out there acting a damn fool" he knew I didn't give a fuck about no paper work , I don't even know why he thought he was gonna tell me what to do and damn sure not with my relationship. He wasn't shit to my mom.

" well handle it" it wasn't nothing he could say or do that was gonna stop me from fucking her up when I saw her. I hung up on him not waiting for him to say something else dumb

" damn bro she bold as fuck" I ignored him too because the more I talked about her and her dumb ass doings. The more I was gonna do when I saw her. My palms was itching to get to her, we was only 20 minutes away from Times Square

" you know what hotel she staying in" I nodded. I knew exactly where she was I just need to get there already. I pushed the pedal a little faster because this ride felt like it was longer than 2 hours

" roll up nigga" I told him and he look at me crazy

" nigga you dead serious" I looked at him like " do I look like I'm lying"

" I just told yo ass I'm hungry" I couldn't do nothing but laugh cause this nigga is out of pocket

" pussy roll up for me"I smacked him upside his head

" well at least I got yo goofy Ass to laugh trynna play all hard" he grabbed the stuff to roll up
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I was scrolling through Zillow because I needed to see what area I was gonna move to. I for sure wasn't moving around here because it's wayyyy to busy for me and my baby.

I didn't even know if I should be moving out here. It was too close to jersey and quicker for him to get to me. I started looking for apartments and houses in Texas, I felt like it was far enough but was it really?, I couldn't fly right now so my only source of transportation was by car, train, bus, or cab.

I was to far along in my pregnancy to fly anywhere so I didn't even see how we were going to go on a baby moon anyway. I shook the thought out of my head because it wasn't happening anyway. I decided I would get up and go get some baby clothes.

I threw on a sweat suit because I knew my ass was gonna be cold, grabbed my purse and headed out the room. I got on the elevator and checked myself out in the mirrors. I was all stomach, LITERALLY.

I was waiting for it to reach the bottom floor, it felt like it was taking longer than usual.I scrunched my face out of curiosity because what the hell was it doing.When it opened all my breathe left my body and I collapsed...