Regina(On Hold) // The 100

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I was sitting on the couch in Kane's unit, watching him mess with the radio. He kept glancing over at me, seeing the pencil and sketchbook in my hands. I had drawn so many things and so many people, but Kane hadn't been one of them, so I decided to sit down and sketch him. "I haven't seen you so calm," Kane said quietly.

"It's not being calm," I told him. "It's a distraction from the real world."

He looked at me with a small smile. "It's still nice to see you taking a break," he said. I let my pencil glide on the paper, drawing an authentic picture of my father. "You draw everything?"

I nodded. "Yeah... at least, I used to." I put the sketchbook down, sighing and leaning back. "When I met new people that helped me... I wanted to draw them in case I never got to see them again. I stopped about five years ago."

He looked up at me concerned. "Why?"

I stood up and grabbed the book, opening to the last page where a small slit was cut. I pulled out a piece of crumpled and folded paper and handed it to Kane. He took it and looked at the paper that had been ripped into a few large pieces. He put the pieces together to get a picture of a girl. "Who's this?"

I sat down and sighed. "Her name was Pavil... my first girlfriend. And I loved her." I smiled as I said the word 'love,' but I frowned as I spoke the next part. "She betrayed me and turned me in... so I killed her." Kane wrapped an arm around my shoulder, hearing the pain in my voice as I spoke of Pavil. "So many people died because of me... I can't save anyone."

"That's not true," Kane said lightly. "You protected Joan for ten years... and you still protect her even when she can protect herself."

He stopped talking when the door to the unit swung open and Miller and Harper walked in. 

"Pike's having a meeting in the Chancellor's office," Miller said. They sat down. "I don't know if the two of you heard, but we're under a blockade. A mile in every direction, Grounders wait to kill anyone trying to break the blockade. We'll need to find other means for food and water."

We heard Bellamy's voice on the radio, interrupting Miller.

"Our lookouts confirm another three encampments just over that ridge."

"Well, they're not hiding from us, that's for sure," Pike said. "How many days can we keep our population fed without being able to send out hunting parties?"

"Food and water stores were already at less than 60%," Hannah explained. "Now, maybe a week before we go critical? Two if we start rationing immediately."

Pike sighed. "Immediately it is."

"What about breaking the blockade?" Hannah suggested.

"After Bellamy's theatrics this morning, they'll expect that. Regardless, we can't engage the Grounders until we've got our own people under control, and that starts with Kane and his daughters."

"Joan has nothing to do with this," Bellamy pointed out. "I highly doubt she's even had enough training to be able to fight against us."

"Jules has an influence on both Joan and Anakin... if we get Jules under control, it'll set Joan and Anakin straight," Pike said. I gritted my teeth, wishing he was here with me so that I could put a knife through his head. But he wasn't. "Bellamy, I need you to suspend access to the prisoners. No contact with anyone in camp. For all we know, they've been providing intel on Grounder villages to Kane."

"Yes, sir."

"What about Jules, sir," Hannah asked. "She's practically one of them. She knows just as much about the territory as the prisoners."