i found poetry i wrote about you back when we were dating
It's sweet, like a kid and a box of chocolates
Im pale
Paler than i was before
i think the sleepless nights are catching up to me
i think you're catching up to me
i love you
i love you
i love you
i cannot love
i 've tried so many times
And ive cried so many times
About you
And Me
And i don't think i can feel
Not the way i used to
Not deeply in my soul
i can't feel
and i talk to a wall
When i'm with you
You've said
So many things
You don't mean
And things you mean
You've told me you don't
You know the truth
And you know i do too
Don't lie
'Cause actions speak louder than words
And your actions
Scream
To me
i was young
And i was stupid
And i don't know if you heard a word i said
Im still young
And still stupid
And you don't hear a word i say
And my lipstick stains
On your teeth
And my skin
On your sheets
it's hard to know you don't feel
The way i used to
(the way i do)
i changed my hair
// you didn't notice
And it's fine
i tell myself
i don't care
Not about the way i feel
Or the way i felt
'Cause i'm young
And stupid
And someday
i won't feel
Anymore.
(The way you push yourself back
Into my life
Just to leave again
After two days
And the hole you leave
You don't care
So i patch it up again
Just for you to text me again.)
And i love your texts,
don't get me wrong
but you don't feel the way i do
and you've told me you could never feel the way i do
so i have to stop feeling
anything you do.
you always manage to say the wrong thing
and make me feel stupid
and bad
i still love you though
but fuck you
for that.
