HOW CAN SOMEONE BE SO SELFISH
AND PRETEND
THEY'RE DOING IT FOR ME
HOW CAN YOU ONLY THINK OF YOURSELF
AND TELL ME
IT'S FOR MY OWN GOOD
HOW CAN YOU COMPLAIN
TO ME
AND TELL ME EVERYTHING;
ALL OF YOUR THOUGHTS
FEELINGS
DESIRES
WISHES
AND THEN LEAVE
LEAVE ME WITH THIS PAIN YOU HAVE
THE PAIN YOU DUMPED ON ME
BECAUSE THE BURDEN IS LIGHTER
IF THE BURDEN IS SHARED
BECAUSE YOU CLAIM YOU 'CAN'T DEAL WITH ME' ANYMORE
THAT I'M TOO MUCH TROUBLE
YOU FUCKING KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
YOU MAKE ME FEEL SO WORTHLESS BECAUSE THE WORST PART IS THAT
I LOVED YOU
I LOVED YOU
I LOVED YOU
AND YOU WERE EVERYTHING
TO ME
I TOUCHED THE STARS
AND GAVE THEM YOUR NAME
IN THE SNOW,
YOUR FACE
IN THE COLD,
YOUR LAUGH
IN THE NIGHT,
YOUR HAIR
AND
ON MY HIPS,
YOUR HANDS.
GOD, I LOVED YOU.
AND YOU TOLD ME
I CAN'T BE LOVED
THAT
I AM UNLOVABLE
THAT
YOU TRIED YOUR BEST
BUT I JUST HAVE SO MANY THINGS
YOU CAN'T STAND
YOU TOLD ME YOU USED ME
YOU LED ME ON
AND THAT I AM AS WORTHLESS
AS YOU MAKE ME FEEL
AND I TOLD YOU
OKAY,
ALRIGHT.
I FUCKING HATE YOU
BUT I WANT YOU
SO FUCKING BAD
AND WITHOUT YOU
I CAN'T BREATHE
WITHOUT YOU
THE WORLD SINKS INTO ITSELF AND
MY THOUGHTS COMPRESS
INTO LAYERS ON MY BIRTHDAY CAKE
MY WISHES ARE ALL YOU
AND EVERY TIME I BLINK,
IT'S FOR YOU
EVERY 11:11
IS FOR YOU
EVERY FOUR LEAFED CLOVER
IS FOR YOU
YOU ARE THE BLOOD
IN MY VEINS
AND THE TEARS
IN MY EYES
AND THE NAILS
ON MY FINGERS
AND THE TINGLING
IN MY THIGHS
YOU ARE THE ONE I RUN FROM
WHEN I GET HIGH
AND THE RED
IN MY EYES
THE SMOKE
IN MY LUNGS
I USE TO DISTRACT
ME FROM YOU
YOU
YOU ARE THE REASON I STARTED SMOKING,
THE REASON I STARTED DRINKING,
THE REASON I NEEDED
EXCUSES
NOT TO FEEL
NOT TO WORK
NOR TO WALK
NOTHING
BECAUSE YOU LEFT ME
AND WITH YOU
YOU TOOK EVERY PIECE OF ME
I THOUGHT I HAD
I FUCKING HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU
AFTER YOU TOLD ME
TO LEAVE
AND I'M THE ONE WALKING INTO THE KNIFE YOU'RE HOLDING
IT'S NOT YOU STABBING ME IN THE BACK
AND I AM SORRY FOR THAT
I AM SORRY FOR MAKING YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE
EVEN THOUGH IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN ME
THE ONE WHO FUCKS US BOTH
IN THE ASS.
